ChocoBears

you mothering lying sack of ! you never wanted a second relationship with me. instead you were ing that skank, weren't you? why did you lie to me? why did you mislead me? do you know how much time and energy i wasted on you? do you know how much i loved you? now i will never trust you and i will never be friends with you again. i will hate you for as long as i live. you lied to me! you stay the away from me.

it's getting really cold outside. i wanted to say hello and that im thinking of you and i miss you.

I don't know what else to do but close off my heart to you. I've been so hurt and it's been a long time coming. The resentment kept building up, and at every turn I was hurt. All those nights that I sat alone. No calls or texts from you. I just stopped putting more energy into the relationship that never went anywhere. I'm so disappointed. I loved you so much. I wanted to spend so much more time with you, to be close to you, to build a life together. But I got none of that. And then I just stopped trying. I didn't want to feel the hurt and rejection anymore. I didn't want to care anymore. All those talks we had, none of it was helping. I didn't know what else to do but to turn away from you.

I miss you so much. I think about you all the time. I want to email you, I want to talk to you, I want to be with you. I am now beginning to see that I've screwed up my half. If we got back together, do you think things would be different? Do you think that love can conquer all? Will we be happy together in the long run? Will I ever find anyone I'm as attracted to as I am to you? I don't want to be without you. I'm supposed to be there taking care of you.

Oh my god. I miss him so much right now. All I want to do is be with him again. I think about it all the time. Everything else I do is just a temporary distraction from him. But he is not good for me. How do I reconcile my brain and my heart?

I love you and you love me. But I cannot be happy with you. You don't treat me right. Our personalities clash. We are incompatible. I've suffered too much pain to be with you again. I need more time to think about us. I need more time to figure out whether we're really the right match for each other. As of right now, I do not think so. It's the most painful thing for me to tell you this, to tell somebody you love so much and who loves you back, that you just don't think it's going to work out. It wouldn't be this difficult with somebody who is right for me. At the same time, I cannot let you go. I love you. You are my baby.

I am so sad and I miss you so much. I can't talk to you anymore. I really want to move on. I don't want to move on, but it's the right thing to do. You don't want to admit it but we can't be together right now, and we can't and won't be together for a long time. I'm really sad for the loss of our relationship. I miss you so much. I wish you were here and I can hug you and kiss you, but I can't take care of you anymore. I can't bear the weight of our relationship just on my shoulders. I can't be in a relationship with the way you are right now. It's so unhealthy. It's not fair to me. I really love you. I have loved you for so long, for the way you are.

I don't think about him nearly as much as I used to, and this marks the end of week 3. I now miss him for an hour or so, whereas I used to miss him for hours and hours on end. If I cry about him, it's short, maybe a half hour, whereas I used to cry all night long. I really try to just brush him out of my mind whenever I can. And if I can't, I concentrate and force myself to think of all the terrible things about him and the terrible ways he treated me and devalued our relationship. Whenever I see him and he says he's happy to see me? What a slap in the face! He had a long time to be with me, to see me, but he refused to, and now he thinks he can just carry on as friends? I feel insulted and rejected all over again. The only real thing that's keeping me from missing him and becoming depressed is by being angry with him. Yet, a part of me is terrified of him moving on. I have a lot of trouble facing the finality of things, facing that, this really is the end. I guess that's why I try not to think about it, and I try to think about, or become obsessed with, other things in my life. I really want to meet someone new. I want to move on before him. I no longer feel that heightened anxiety. I can sleep and eat again, and he's no longer on my mind 24/7.

I miss you so much. Maybe I don't miss you, but I miss having someone. I wish we could go back to the time when we were happy and live happily ever after like that. I know you are not someone I want to be with. You don't really have the qualities I'm looking for in a relationship, but I love you anyway. I'm mad at you for the failure of our relationship. I wish we could be together again.