I can't believe I saw you today while driving. I'm so glad you didn't notice me. It just sucks because all those emotions came flooding back. Thankfully I had a busy day to occupy my mind. I can't believe it has been almost 5 months since we last spoke. Part of me does still miss you, but I can't forgive you nor overlook your selfish ways, lies and mental issues. I know I can keep up NC forever, and I've already calmed down since earlier, but I honestly don't know what I'll do if you contact me. Maybe I'll respond, maybe I won't. I don't know why I keep thinking that it was my fault. I keep thinking that if I had just done what you wanted, walked away and not said a word, we'd be back together. Then I think, why would I want to be with someone that doesn't want me? Why would I want someone who makes everything, and I mean EVERYTHING a priority over me. It doesn't matter whether it was school, your dog, or getting your hair done. Everything came before me. I don't care who you are, no one wants to be alone that much. Maybe I was just that good-looking guy your family approved of because they hated your ex. So you kept me around, slept with me, lied to me, just to trot around your family on occasion. I got that apartment just 5 minutes away, and I saw you maybe once every two weeks for a couple of hours. Yet, when we were just friends and you were with that abusive psycho, you were driving 20 to be with him daily. I sincerely hope you never contact me, because I know I'll never contact you. Thanks for making a dude feel unappreciated. How many times did I fix your pc? How many times did I repair something at your house? How many times was I understanding when you wanted to be alone? Do you know how frustrating it is to have so many plans cancelled at the last minute? We were together way too long for games like that. You keep saying how wonderful I was, and telling everyone what a great catch I was, but your actions left a lot to be desired. Your an amazing actress. Look a guy in the eye, tell him he's hot, smart, funny and that you love him so much, but then toss him out like he's yesterday's garbage. Your a liar, a manipulator, and a selfish, judgmental, hypocritical b****. At least now I know I'm stronger, more focused, and less naive. Good luck keeping a guy around with your mental issues and selfish behavior. You may say you want the man to act like a man, but that's awfully hard to do when I had to walk on egg-shells to prevent you from shutting down all the time. I think you've been stuck in that house for way too long with nothing but your coddling mom, your sister and a ton of female animals, especially that little psycho dog of yours. Frankly, no dog should sleep in the bed, especially one that p***** all over it all the time. You need to get over yourself. Though hey, if you want to keep being the victim, be my guest. Like I told you at the end, why was it that you were all over your abusive ex, but the guy who actually cares about you you toss aside? Could it be that you like getting hit? Do you like guys who cheat on you? I didn't realize that to be a "man" you had to hit women. I'm tall, good looking, workout, play and watch sports, drink beer, hang out with the guys. I'm good with cars, fixing things, and great with kids. I was always taught being a man meant being strong, physically, emotionally, and morally. My mother taught me to respect women, to appreciate their beauty and softer demeanor, not to take advantage of them and hurt them. But you didn't appreciate that, you took it for granted. Once you mature a little, I'm sure you'll realize the mistake you made. It might take getting slapped around and cheated on a few more times. But hey, you might just get there. But it'll be too late. You had your shot. I could've made you happier than you'll ever realize, but you just wouldn't come with me on this journey. I truly am sorry for saying those things, but I was shocked, hurt and confused. Even then though, I never spoke ill of you even when you broke my heart. I just called you out on your issues. But you got your wish, and you were able to go to your family and tell them what a jerk I was and how I wasn't the great guy everyone thought. So, I'm gone, I'm climbing towards success without you, and I'm glad to be free of the burden you placed on my shoulders.