brokenhearted1

I am not going to call you and tell you how much I miss you.....

After splitting up again...and then talking...then deciding to not talk again...

One day since I haven't talked to him. I guess he has moved on..or maybe not. He told me he was having a hard time moving on from me, but then talks about other women online. IK I shouldn't look, but it's hard. I am good at not contacting him first...he always contacts me.

It's tough bc my vehicle is in the shop and idk what's wrong with it...then I have to sit at home n do nothing. It's so much added stress, and I just need something to go right. It kinda feels like everything is falling apart, and that makes me miss him more. I don't even know why sometimes. It's not like he was ever really there for me anyways.

He broke my heart...

Day 10...

He texted me today saying he's sorry and how big of an ahole he is. I didn't respond, but I have read that text like ten times. I do wonder what made him come to that realization, and this is where the hard part comes in...ignoring him when he is talking to me.

Day 9 for me..

I am trying to get a job out of town which has taken some of my focus. Moving would be a good thing for me right now. I know that if I talked to him...he wouldn't ignore me...and if I wanted to try and work on things...he probably would. But I keep reminding myself I am better off without him...

I AM BETTER OFF WITHOUT HIM

I feel the same...

Day 8...

I got to go out with a friend last night..it helped a little that I wasn't just sitting in my apt thinking. When I woke up today I went over that last day I saw him, and how cruel he was. It still hurts, but I feel that I am coming to see each day that I am better off without him.

That great person I had so much fun with is a part of him that I love. But that cruel, and heartless person is also a part of who he is...and I can't love that side.

It's day 7...

I took a nap today, that felt nice because I haven't hardly slept at all.

But, when I woke up I was really missing him. I felt empty, lonely, and sad. I remember this one time I went out of time, and it was only for a short time, okay we didn't see each other for only 24 hours, but we missed each other. I remember when he walked into the restaurant I was meeting him at and we hugged each other soooooooo tight. The girl working there asked "have you two been away from each other for awhile?" I laughed and said ya a day!

We had a special connection that even other people noticed. I miss going out to lunch with him...I miss it so much.

No, he will not know if you block his posts from your news feed. The most recent girl I broke up with for some reason wants to be friends with me on fb. The first time we stopped talking I de-friended her and she found out and re-added me by sending me another request a couple days later. We ended up getting back together and just broke up again. So this time I just removed her posts from my news feed, because it hurts me to see her posts, similar to what you said. But I don't want her knowing I removed her and her trying to re-add me again or what not. I have actually removed quite a bit of people from my news feed and I am almost certain they don't know, just like if you make them restricted.

Unfriend him on FB, or at least edit it so he doesn't show up in your news feed. Or else every time he updates his FB it is going to hurt the recovery process

He posted on his FB (I need to stop reading those) that he's going on a road trip...I was suppose to go on that with him...fml.

Day 5....

I want to talk to him SO BAD...

I just keep telling myself...remember how he hurt you...remember how he made you feel. This is the same guy who abandoned you when you needed him most and you deserve better!

Day 4

 

Weekend is so difficult...

 

I kept myself busy since i got up this morning, having lunch with a girl friend, doing shopping.

But now, the moment when i open the door after arriving home, i crash down.

I am all alone in my empty apartment. Everything i see reminds me of him. I used to spend whole afternoon and evening talking with him.

Why couldn't it just last forever... Why it has to end like this...

 

"Before i met you, i was fine. Sinle, sure, but i was happy. And now that i've lost you, I feel lonely,

Lonely all the time."

 

I feel soooo lonely.....

This is EXACTLY how I feel. Weekends and nights are the hardest for me...

Actually, I take that back...we talked Monday the 19th...so this would be day 4 for me...

We had broken up and talked about getting back together so I sent him a relationship request on FB. Before he could even accept it we were split up again. It still says pending so I know he hasn't rejected it yet...

I know it seems silly but it's a way for me to kind of hold on...I need to cancel that request...I really do.

I accept the challenge..nc with him since last thursday...day 8...I feel a little better. I still feel angry sometimes and miss him, but that goes away a little each day...