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  1. I’m honestly so grateful for all your amazing advice. There is many good parts I can keep coming back to.
  2. Wow! I love your advice. What you say really resonates. Thank you. I’m going to keep re-reading it.
  3. Yes. I’m slowly trying to organise things here to preoccupy my mind. in answer to the question about blocking: barely a few. Seconds went by after I blocked him on social media when he text me going crazy that I had blocked him. He must have been watching or on my profile. So I just hadn’t blocked his phone number at the point he had text me.
  4. He is already blocked. And yes I feel he’s enjoying life more than I am even though he caused the chaos.I don’t wish bad in him but I’m the one left picking up the pieces and climbing walls. I know I should be stronger. It’s just very raw for me at present. I’ve been stung bad. I do appreciate all the advice though. I am reading every word.
  5. I don’t like myself for feeling weak. I wish I could be stronger.
  6. Thank you. I hope so too. Knowing I did nothing wrong but feel like I’m being punished whilst he’s living it up sucks, but at the same time my conscience is clear knowing I did my best.
  7. It just hurts so much how I’ve been crossed. I can’t believe he could do this without explanation. Part of me just wants everything to be ok. I have no plans to unblock him though. I think I just going through a thousand emotions at once.
  8. He let me know how upset he was at being blocked on social media but what else could I do? He’d cheated on me and I didn’t want to read about his new happiness. At the same time as being annoyed he stated he loved me several times, of which I did not respond. Now I’m scared I’ll never hear from him again even though I can’t go back. His friends reckon he’ll be in touch. Even he admits he was always the one initiating contact (after he’d been mean to me).
  9. There have been a couple of times, during the ‘something felt off’ period that I did end the call but he sent me messages accusing me of not loving him before finally being nice and love-bombing me again. He always initiated contact every other time. He even begged. I felt bad that he did and forgave him. I’m just a kind person in general, but often not to myself.
  10. The names he called me were vicious without any lead up to them. He’d simply call me in a bad mood and say bad things. I tried to remain calm as I felt he was trying to cause an argument just so he could use it as an excuse to call his ex. I must have frustrated him with my calmness.
  11. I do believe I am too passive and too forgiving. I just can’t be anything else but nice. Unfortunately, this has often worked against me.
  12. He is cut off. And you’re right about the being good and nice cos he even told me I wasn’t challenging enough because I am so placid. I told him that’s who I am and I can’t change. Meanwhile, he would often start phone calls with calling me vile names. I never knew which version I’d get. Can’t believe I put myself through this.
  13. Hopefully I can move on from this pretty soon. I just feel depleted. I’m also upset he got to walk away happily ever after while I am left picking up the pieces when I did nothing wrong. Life seems so unfair. I’ll never stop being a good person though. I do hope he remains safe, though, and wish no harm on him.
  14. Yes, I understand, although I never saw myself as his hero. I just tried to be the best person I could be. And I doubt they’d go to therapy. They both seem to feed off drama where I prefer a peaceful life. All I can say is I could have done no more to show him what a good and faithful person I am.
  15. Thank you. It’s like he places all the blame on me like I’m toxic. I couldn’t have done more for him or been more for him. One thing for sure is I can take away the fact that I never wronged him or called him names like he did with me. I don’t wish harm on him but even he must know his new relationship with his ex won’t last. Especially when they both cheat on one another. He had a good thing with me.
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