Mistykitty

Its been, like, 5 months now? Something like that @-@

Just popping in to say that my ex is giving me breadcrumbs like crazy now. A couple days ago he was just talking about how I'm so "crazy", and now that I'm confident and I guess he's [finally] picked up on it, he's contacting me for the most random reasons =P

I just wanted to post that somewhere, because I find it amusing, hah. Just keep NC up You'll be SO MUCH stronger and be able to happily look back on how far you've come

I get pretty tired of hearing from him sometimes =I Right now its at the point where he texts me every 3 days or so. Its because we're working on a project together, so its not "breadcrumbs", but still. It's impeding my ability to move forward 100%

Day whatever, it's been over 2 months now...

He called me earlier and nearly gave me a heart attack. He didn't even like talking on the phone when we were together so I figured it was important, especially when he told me to call him back

...nope, he just needed help shipping something. Kinda a letdown. This is why you stick to NC, folks

Day 60, I think it is?

He just unblocked me on Facebook. No, I wasn't checking...my friend had linked me to a picture he had commented on, and I noticed I could now see his comments. I'm trying really hard not to overanalyze it but he only did it for one of two very different reasons. Either he's completely over me and doesn't care if he sees my profile any more, or isn't over me and wants to be able to see mine.

I know, its most likely the first, but the fact that he stalks my other social media (words from his mouth, mind you) leads me to think he's not over me. After 4 months? Kinda sad for someone insisting we'll never be together again...

Two months into NC now and I'm not sure how much longer I can handle seeing him twice a week. I'm slowly starting to break down again.

Day 53

Wow, now that I've actually counted, it feels like so long o_o

Anyways, having classes with him is so weird. We still talk, so its not ~awkward~, but sometimes I feel like I just wanna cry (and I did today)

Oh and by the way, I know about her =/

Day whatever, idk its been over a month now, but I'm PISSED

he texted me, saying something like "stop spreading rumors about me". I was really confused because we don't have any mutual friends??? Turns out he was stalking my tumblr, where I have posted NO negative things about him, he just misinterpreted something. So okay, that's all good, but now he's griping about something else

So since I was talking to him, I gave in and looked at HIS tumblr, and turns out he's spending Spring Break with that girl @-@ Whatever, that's pretty gross. I'm just so mad that he always seems to turn up when I'm feeling good. That's how exes work, after all

Anyways, I ended up apologizing for anything I may have said, and looks like he's done talking now. Dammit, played right into his ego-trap

Congratulations on your 30 Days!!! Has he tried to contact you?

Nope, he hasn't. We actually talked for the first time since me starting NC today, because we have a class together. I'm not counting that against NC because its a teamwork-driven class, and I honestly don't mind small chats with him anymore.

Actually, he apologized to me today, and talked a bit about our relationship problems. He mentioned something I put on my tumblr, which means he's actively looking at it…which means he knows I'm dating other people. I think that's why he bothered apologizing. And apparently he still REALLY wants me to play some video games with him, because he was all upset over me not adding him yet.

Its a bit confusing. But I do believe I'm strong enough to take it now. Honestly, I can see us being friends--not right now, because I'm not fully over him--but sometime in the future. We're able to be mature right now, so that's a good thing.

Hi all, I just thought I'd pop in to say I'm now at over a month NC

And that's true NC--I stopped social network stalking and everything

I know everyone says this a lot, but it DOES get easier! It took me SO many false starts, and by now I'm sure I'm notorious around here for frequently complaining I couldn't keep up with NC =P

But I did it! And you know what? I haven't even looked back. I honestly don't even think about him much anymore...all from just 30 days of not talking

Day 29

I've seem to hit a bad spot in the cycle again...the past 3 days have had me feeling extremely depressed. Its possible its just my bipolar, BUT I haven't been able to think of anything except him, and its almost like I'm grieving the breakup all over again. So I think its safe to say its just one of those rough spots

I hope its over soon, I really do. I don't even WANT to go to a New Year's Party I've been excited about

Day 26

Another depressing day. I hope this ends soon

Day 25

Wow, days go by so fast once you're really dedicated

I've been doing really well, but the fact that its the holidays is kinda putting me down. HE doesn't celebrate Christmas, but a lot of the gifts I got I know he would have been excited over (we loved a LOT of the same things) and blahh blah blah. I think New Year's will be worse, though, because then I'll just be picturing him getting drunk and doing stuff with random girls =/ And God forbid next semester, I know he'll meet someone new in one of his classes

Day 17

Wow here I am again, cuz a really stupid thing happened. That guy I dated on Friday and I went on another date and, well...I really, really like him (or at least, I thought I did), the sparks were flying and everything. And then we started cuddling and NOPE. Way too soon, apparently. Its frustrating because you'd think 3 months would be enough time =/ I'm attracted to himm, love talking to him, but I don't feel anything when we do anything physical. In fact, what happened tonight kinda makes me not want to talk to him again

Is this normal? I know everyone has different healing times, but it makes me feel like I'll never get over my ex. Also, not having someone to "distract" me means I'm thinking about him again, which sucks.

Day 14

Date was great My face hurts from smiling so much, eheheeh. Still thought about my ex a bit though, so I know its too soon for anything serious, buuut I can still have fun

I still don't understand why you don't want to work things out

Day 13

Holy crap, time is going by so fast. Almost two weeks

I'm starting to think he hasn't texted me because I told him I needed to heal. but that would mean he was compassionate, and I don't think that's true I have a date tomorrow, I'm really excited

Day 10 passed pretty well...I was right, nothing really happened We took our exams and was on our way. He texted me saying the exam sucked afterwards, oh and he gave me his PSN name. I think I'll add him, I just don't know when.

I wonder if he's really okay with things being over for good, or he's just too prideful to work on things. I know, I know, if he REALLY wanted me he would suck it up, but I can't help but wonder, you know?

Aaand so begins...well, never seeing each other again. Its hard to believe that just at the beginning of the semester I was crying every day, though we were still close...now we don't even talk at all

You definitely will! You are only in college, and dating college-aged guys, and that's probably why the relationships aren't as meaningful. Lots of college-aged people are just looking for casual dating so thats the more common situation. It's totally fine to want something serious, its just not as common in college so a little harder to find.

 

Are you waiting until marriage to have sex? Is it for religious reasons? If you're in college there is DEFINITELY several christian organizations where you will find like-minded guys. Thats probably your best bet.

I'm fine with casual dating (in fact that's what I'm doing right now, I guess), but not for the rest of my life. I'm not waiting to have sex, I'm just not sexually attracted to anyone, so I have no interest in sex. Obviously that doesn't fly with most people

Day...10. The longest I've gone so far, and ~the big day~. Last time we'll see each other. Probably nothing remarkable will happen, but idk..we'll see?

Day 8

Was feeling really good, until it hit me that I'll probably never have a meaningful relationship =/ During work, I was thinking about the dates I've been asked on so far, but then realized they're just that--dates. Finding someone who's okay with never having sex is pretty much impossible. Its startng to get depressing

How was yesterday?

Easy again. This is just so weird to me. Today marks over one week and I don't see myself cracking. I suppose MAYBE its because I'm so busy and stressed with finals and the holidays that I haven't had time to think about him...and I can't help but think its the same for him >_

He's starting to just become a memory. Its nice and scary at the same time

Maybe your body is getting rid of those attachment hormones, and since your mind already knows he's not right for you, you really are moving on. First step, Gut/instinct knows he's not right for you, Second step: Your brain knows he's not right for you, Third Step: Your heart/body knows he's not right.

 

Maybe you are on step 3?

That's an interesting thought; I suppose I am. Its just so weird to me because a week is the longest I've ever gone, and this time around it feels like nothing. Though I suppose today is the true test--I'm staying home all day doing homework for the class I have with him, no doubt I'll be thinking about him. Hopefully I won't crack

Day 6

...why is this so easy?

I'm nervous something's suddenly gonna hit me

Day 4

Haven't felt much of an urge to contact him, so hooray for that. Still pretty sad, though >_

Wish I could come over

do I deserve this?