thisisnotdave

Dear ___,

Remember how we talked about living each day like it was our last? I think this is me enacting that right now. I honestly don’t know what I want out of sending you this letter. But here it goes.

After our break up, I was trying to search for answers. I’ve talked to more people than I can count and I’ve taken more advice than I would ever imagine. I feel like I’ve learned more about myself post break up than I have during our relationship. In that sense, I’ve come to terms that this break up was necessary.

I can now confidently say that I will be okay with or without you but I will be lying if I said that I wouldn’t want us to try again in the future.

I feel like we (I) didn’t get closure. Maybe this letter can serve that purpose. I do miss you as a person and as a friend.

Sincerely,

Dave

Day whatever. It's almost three months since you broke up with me. Once again I wake up at six thirty after dreaming about you, that we're a couple again, doing things together..the dreams are so vivid, and make me realize how much in love I still am with you. I'm continuing my life, I'm in good health, I've been picking up the pieces. But moving on? The next girl, whoever she is, will have the impossible task of making me forget you, so you've just ruined it for the competition - and I've just ruined it period.

This is how I feel too. I'm on day 38 though.

DAY 35

Almost broke NC today. I was dead set on it actually. But I didn't.

Day 34

Not much to say. I'm thinking about contacting her tomorrow evening.

Hey, I could have written those exact words! She felt I was suffocating her, needed the space. Well, I figure she's getting it now! The urge to contact her is sometimes overwhelming, but I don't think it's going to make any difference contacting her. What do you hope the result will be, Dave? If I may ask, you might convince me. I don't think there's a point, you see. Usually the words 'need space' is just their way of saying they don't dig us anymore.. I'm holding off calling, and then if she calls (and pigs may fly) it's another story.. Well good luck with your decision!

I'll let you know how it goes when I contact her. My smarter half is telling me that I will regret it, but maybe it's something I have to learn on my own!

I'm sad and surprised she hasn't contacted me yet. She broke up with me because she wanted space. Well, I guess she's getting it! Haha. I want to contact her in a few days.