dansmi12345

I just really don't want to see you. Hopefully I don't have to

Thinking about you a bit right now, but that's okay. Mostly just memories. I still know it's best if we're not together. Oh well, onward and upward.

Daniel, just remember: you're a good person and you will find someone. You are happier without her. You have so much to love and be thankful for.

Until next time,

Daniel

I do still think about you and him, but it doesn't hurt quite as much when I do. That's progress, I'd say. I'm getting better. I know cognitively that us not being together is for the best, and that I am happier than I was when I was with you. Next step is to fully feel that in my heart. I think I'm getting there. I'm very stressed with school right now, so my healthy eating and exercise has dropped off in the last couple days, which has made me feel a bit worse about things. After my 2 exams tomorrow though, I'll get back on the horse with exercise and diet, and I'll continue to work on myself.

Until next time,

Daniel

Ya know, the breakup sucked, but now that it's a ways down the road, I'm doing great. In the past few months, I've gone from suicidal to working out almost every day, eating healthy, and I'm in the best shape of my life (physically and emotionally). I have way more self confidence and I feel great about myself. Looking back on it, you dumping me was the best thing that possibly could have happened to me.

Until next time,

Daniel

I was having a rough day for other reasons yesterday, and I really thought seriously about calling you, but managed not to. I'm glad I didn't. I worked through my bad day on my own, and now I've come through on the other side of it all. I can relax and have a nice, quiet Friday now. I hope you're doing well. I do wonder whether you're still with the rebound from our relationship, but I won't ask. It really doesn't matter. I know you've been asking about me, but like I've said, it really doesn't matter.

I honestly can't decide whether I think you're a good or a bad person. Regardless, I've forgiven you, at least for the most part, but there are just so many things about you that I would change. I guess that's a big reason why we didn't work out.

I really like someone else now. I have no idea how to go about pursuing her, since it's been so long since I've been single and on the prowl, but she's amazing, and I really hope something comes of it.

Until next time.

-Daniel

You're definitely not alone in that sense! There was a period of time where I literally stopped doing it, because I couldn't stop myself from thinking of her when I did...thank goodness that period of time is over now.

Please just leave me alone. Stop showing up at parties thrown by MY FRIENDS just because you got a sympathy invite, and when I choose to ignore you when I'm there, don't sent me an angry text about that. Do you really think it's a coincidence that we haven't hung out in 3 weeks? It's not. I clearly don't want to see you.

Get out of my head! I just wish you would leave my world completely.

Sorry...I hope you don't think horribly of me. I really do.

Apparently you've been telling some of my friends about how I'm being a * * * * to you and how you think I hate you. I don't hate you. I nothing you. You don't deserve my friendship. Stop checking in on me. Stop trying to talk to MY friends as if they're yours, thinking that what you say won't get back to me. I hafta say, you tempted me to contact you about this, but I'm stronger than that.

Ta ta now.

-Dan

I'm feeling so much better and you have to text me. Why do you feel the need to pretend we're friends? We're not. You know deep down that I don't want to be friends, but you won't admit it to yourself, and you know I'm too nice to just ignore it. I shouldn't have responded. Just go hook up with that stupid emo kid, even though you know he's wrong for you in so many ways. I was the best thing that could have happened to you, and you threw it all away without even trying. You were so much more stable with me. I know you're going to regret breaking up with me, because I'm way better than any other guy you've ever gone out with. I'm way too good for you, and I'm way out of your league, yet you broke up with me. I really don't hate you, but a part of me wants you to see now what I know you'll see eventually: leaving me was the biggest mistake you ever made. You won't ever be able to commit to anyone.

You told me to let you know when I'm free to hang out? Not going to happen. Sure, I'll give you a breadcrumb back in response, because I hate more than anything when texts go unresponded to, but there is no chance I'm initiating plans with you. I don't want you back, not even a little bit. I no longer have a desire to hook up with you, date you, or even touch you. I know you don't believe me, and I know you think I still pine for you, but I don't.

If you bring the new guy you're hooking up with to my party tonight... * * * * 's going down.

Why do I still think of you? We weren't together that long, and I knew deep down that it wasn't going to work.

Also, why won't you just leave me alone? You don't need to text my roommate, but you do. Stop trying to be friends with all my friends. They're MY FRIENDS. Just leave me alone.

Why are you SO intent on being friends? You're hooking up with someone else now, and you tell that to me like it's no big deal. You say you assume that I wouldn't care, so of course I'm going to play it off that way. Want to know why I actually care about the fact that you're with someone else? Because I actually cared about you. Because I wasn't afraid to actually be real and give us a shot. But you never gave us a shot and then you toyed with me. So why do I have to be friends with you? Why do you show up at my house and act like everything is ok? All I can think about is you with him. Just leave me alone. I was doing fine for our month of NC, but all of a sudden you feel such a strong need to hang out with me. Just LEAVE ME ALONE.

I don't know why I still think of you. We're friends, sure, but why is it seemingly so easy for you to just be friends? I don't want to date you anymore and I know that we are better off not being together, so why do I still want you to not go out and have fun and to not date other guys? Are your texts to me really just as friends or are you still interested in me? Why do I even care? Why do you constantly contact me and then just call me a friend? Why, why, why????

I just want to hold her. This breakup is so dumb. It could have been avoided so easily. Why can't I think about anything else?

I had NC for a while, broke it for a week or 2, but now I think I need to resume it if I ever want to get over her. NC it is!