andi8172

Im finding it hard to concentrate on reading at the mo but i do enjoy richard laymon books real page turners but my last book was the lovely bones good book but dissapointing end!

I am a person

but does anyone notice

i am a person

who wants someone to care

icu myself

i take the pills

but im still here.

I go to sleep

but not to wake

iwish i wasnt the one i hate

i dont know what i ever did wrong

to live my life all on my own

im not a bad human being

im just a guy who no ones seeing

it always seems that good goes bad

one day im happy the next ten sad

i want some hope that lifeill be fine

but lifes not like that especially mine

ive tried my best

cant try no more

should i end it just not sure

i went to hospital and loved it there when i awoke someone cared

they asked me why?

and then i lied

the truth is this

id like to die

i know my family and they may grieve

perhaps its best if i dont leave

if i dont wake up will people care

will they notice im not there

but this is my life

i want to die

im happy now so please dont cry

i dont want to get old and all alone

cos ive been young and thats been done......

andi8172

i wrote this at a low point

i cut a cross into my arm first time then i just wanted to go further i havent cut my arms for a while i do places people wont see,or i burn my arms and should anyone care enough to ask ill tell them i burnt it on an appliance .