andi8172

Im finding it hard to concentrate on reading at the mo but i do enjoy richard laymon books real page turners but my last book was the lovely bones good book but dissapointing end!

I am a person but does anyone notice i am a person who wants someone to care icu myself i take the pills but im still here. I go to sleep but not to wake iwish i wasnt the one i hate i dont know what i ever did wrong to live my life all on my own im not a bad human being im just a guy who no ones seeing it always seems that good goes bad one day im happy the next ten sad i want some hope that lifeill be fine but lifes not like that especially mine ive tried my best cant try no more should i end it just not sure i went to hospital and loved it there when i awoke someone cared they asked me why? and then i lied the truth is this id like to die i know my family and they may grieve perhaps its best if i dont leave if i dont wake up will people care will they notice im not there but this is my life i want to die im happy now so please dont cry i dont want to get old and all alone cos ive been young and thats been done...... andi8172 i wrote this at a low point

i cut a cross into my arm first time then i just wanted to go further i havent cut my arms for a while i do places people wont see,or i burn my arms and should anyone care enough to ask ill tell them i burnt it on an appliance .