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Day 32.

she has not been on my mind as much lately and I am just going with the flow of every day to day life.

I can still say that I feel better but I do still get these little spikes of sadness and emotion from time to time.

Day 30. It was a rough road but I got there. I will say that I feel a little better then on day 1 but of course she still pops up in my mind and I do wish the break up never happened and we were in each others arms. Oh well now onto try to do 60 days.

Day 28. Missing her but not so upset or depressed anymore. I think she has been logging into my facebook account and snooping on me. So I changed my password.

day 28 I believe.

had a terrible dream lastngiht. In my dream we ran into each other and she jumped in my arms saying "I missed you so much"

Still NO contact and wont.

Day 26 or 27 I kind of lost count

Doing a bit better. Still miss her and still have feelings for her. keeping busy.

Day 26

I have still not contacted her but today and yesterday I had some very strong feelings of missing her. I completely broke down and cried for several hours. I really do miss her and I am still deeply deeply in love with this women.

Not sure what day it is.

But I am doing fine, but she crept into my mind today, but I kept busy and didnt really let it affect me.

Woke up today missing her completely and feel very lonely. I wish I could just have her back. I hate this feeling and I cannot seem to shake these feelings. I feel as if she will always be inn my heart. I am on the verge of contacting her but I know that will not make anything better so I am going to continue my NC. I am not sure what day I am on. Haven't contacted her since April 6th.

Sign me up for the challenge.

I have had no contact with my ex since april 5th.

Each day I still think about her and pray to god that maybe someday we will talk again and possibly get back together.