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Today marks the 5th month of NC for me. I will say even though I still think about my EX on occasion I am going on with my life. Sure we all have weak moments and yesterday was one, but I will never contact her because I know it won't change a thing. She is apparently happy with her new bf doing all the things we were supposed to do together. Oh well life goes on,
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It has been about 4 months of NC for me and I still have thoughts of her, but I do not get upset nor do I dwell on these thoughts, my life is moving on with or without her.
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Day 96!!! And I still have up and down days. but I am much much better dealing with it now. hang in there guys and gals.
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day 69. Wow do I feel like crap today. Woke up in a complete mess. I miss her being my friend more then my gf. I am slowly letting go and moving on though. I keep telling myself "if it's meant to be let it free and it will come back again"
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Dont do it
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Welcome to the challenge!!! Day 66 for me. still think about her but I am getting over the feelings that make me a compete mess. we had a good run and now is over, Life goes on. She will never know what she truly is missing. I am a great guy, she just lost sight of that towards the end and wanted to find someone new.
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Getting back together really does happen!
pdoog replied to wishingonastar's topic in Getting Back Together
I just actually recently have began talking to a Ex befor this latest one. After about 2 years of not talking. But it was a very weird situation so we both were not that hurt after we decided to become friends. She got married and now has 4 kids. I am happy for her but yes people you once had feelings for and a thing with do sometimes come back. Sometimes they dont. -
DAY 60 today has been officially 2 months since I went NC. I have not heard a single peep from her nor am I expecting one. I still miss our life together and I still hold feelings for her in my heart. The pain is far lss worse then it was but it still comes and goes as it pleases. yesterday for example I balled my eyes out randomly. Nothing triggered it I just felt a loss and began to cry.
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Day 59. Had dreams bout her again last night, Some good some bad. I am slowly moving on, I think of her less and less but I still do think of her. Still hard to not contact her seeing it has been almost 2 months. But still 2 months is not enough time in the grand scheme of things. I think If I havnt heard form her by month 9 I will just pop a quick email and just see how she doing. (not sure yet on that though)
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day 54 Today I feel alone and confused. I am becoming bored with the everyday routine I am in, I need to find a new hobby or find someone to talk to, I do not have any friends here where I am.
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Day 53. had a emotional wave of extreame anger and sadness not sure why but I know it had something to do with thinking of her.
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Day 51. I have been finding myself lately thinking a lot more about her then usual and letting it get me down. I think I am still grieving the loss of the only person that ever REALLY made me HAPPY. This feeling really hurts and I am scared that it will never go away because I am holding onto it, I hold on to it because I am afraid of truly letting go of my feelings and thoughts and memories of her. Bah this is tougher then I expected.
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I know how you feel I just want to heal to but my mind wont let me.
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Yes that is the hardest part for me to. And a lot of people will say, well you were happy before you met her so now you can do it again. And the truth is I have never been really happy. She was the first person in my life that actually gave me a reason to wake up feeling good about myself. Now she is gone I am now back to being unhappy with myself and things around me.
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To be honest No it doesn't give me any closure I have a million questions still unanswered. Yes knowing she with another guy only shows and tells me that she has moved on and perhaps it is time I do to. A part of me is afraid though, afraid of what I do not know.
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Day 50 Woke up in tears, I having feelings of great loss and I feel like I have been set back to how it was the first week of the break up. I miss her terribly and I know she has begun to date someone new and is absolutly loving this new guy. (reminds me of how she was with me). I NEED CLOSURE and I can't seem to get it. I want to email her or contact her but I know that would not make me feel any better but it would actually make me feel 10 times worse. I just want to move on but my mind will not let me. I am stuck on her and can't seem to want to forget about her. Her I dont want to forget about her (even though I know this is probably the best solution). I know whaever thought of me she has if any is not anything good. Even though I gave her so many good memories the damage I did during the break up probably out weighs those. Sorry just venting. I thought it gets easier with each day of NC and it does in general but these last few days have been Hell.
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Day 49. Wow today my emotions are as if we broke up last week. All the emotions of our relationship came flooding back and I can't seem to figure out why I am feeling this way. I know I am almost 50 days into this NC but I still feel a huge void within myself where she used to be. I never thought it would be this hard to get over someone. I think for me I have a lot of unanswered questions about the relationship and why we actually broke up. I really never got closure because she really never gave me a "in stone" THIS IS WHY I AM BREAKING UP WITH YOU, response. I know deep down she has moved on and is enjoying her new found freedom. I myself am having ups and downs and feel as if this is never going to end.
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Day 47 Doing ok, woke up from another weird dream, this time it was very sexual and she was being normal towards me like it was when we were first dating. Dreams I dont get them..... I am doing ok though not to sad
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Wow today is a real weird one. For some reason today I feel a empitiness that I havnt felt since the actual breakup. I feel hopeless and sad. I miss my Ex and I want that feeling back. Its day 46. I am almost tempted to write her but I am going to stay strong and continue on. It is amazing how when you feel yourself getting over someone the memories creep back in and mess with your emotions.
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Figureitout It is ironic you talk about dreams. I have been dreaming of my ex a lot lately and I am on day 45 I think or 46. My dreams are varying in some she says "I miss youa nd want you back and love you". In others she sees me and either acts like she doesn't know me or she gets quite an attitude with me, Just this morning I had one where In the dream she owns a Children s toy store, and I walked in and she looks at me and immediately says "What are you trying to do intimidate me". Also in the dreams her Kids ignored me as well. I do not know what this dream means if anything (I dont tend to look into dreams to much). But it was defiantly weird. Anyway today is not so tough but I feel as if I am thinking of her a lot more today then the previous 4 days this week.
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Day 43 Not thinking about her as muhc and when I do I don't get nearly as upset. Got a lot of good things coming into my life. I signed up for a volunteering group to keep me extra busy and I have to go to Chicago to get my license back after 6 years. Life is finally picking up. Would still like ot hear from her, but it's not making me crazy like it was on days 1-20. Oh and I got myself a new puppy to keep me even busier.
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I know how you feel, Its been day 37 for me and I still am thinking maybe she will contact me eventually and maybe she wont. I still love her deeply and miss her so much. I actually haven't seen or touched her in more then 4 months but that's hard now we are 1600 miles apart. I wish I could just speak with her, but I know its way to early to do that. She is very angry at me for some reason.
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I would suggest either leaving the social networking site for some time, or just removing her as a friend. If you keep her as a friend you may feel pressure to see what she is upto. Day 36 or 37. Living life and hanging in there. I do still wish she would contact me but I am not really holding my breathe. I have more important things to worry about now.
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Day 35. Hanging in there.
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Day 34 I feel as though I am not constantly thinking of her all day long. I still of course get triggered by certain things, but I feel a little less obsessed now. I still miss the company of having her around me but It's getting easier.