littlej

Day whatever, and I feel great. I have sort of an I don't care attitude. I hope it stays!!

Not a good night at all. Day 37 I think. My ex and her man threw a cocktail hour last night at some bar and a lot of people were invited from work. Of course I did not go. This summer is going to suck.

Day i dont know 35 i think. But I feel great. I hope it lasts all day. Came to a lot of realizations lately. I no longer feel like it was all my fault. A few weeks ago I did and I beat myself up about it. I am a much better person than my ex and her man because I spent all this time working on myself and it shows. I am on top of my game and if she were to see me now she would see obvious changes. But she does not deserve them. I think she is starting to realize the error she made because she contacts me now. I still get excited when she does so but play it cool and dont respond/ answer.

If you do respond I'll hit you with my shoe

 

Ok, please not the shoe!

Day 34 feelin good, she emailed but I didn't open it (yet). I will not be responding, I came too far to get set back.

Better today. I slept the whole night which has been rare since the breakup. I am actually letting go somewhat. This is day 33 btw. Just hit me that's a long time. Maybe she is starting to forget about me. Who knows things are probably swell with her man. She didn't even give it a week before going back to him. Rebound? Maybe. not my concern anymore...

I just want to get over her already.. This is terrible, day 31 just started to take a nose dive. I dont want her BS anymore but I can't move on. This sucks.

Muhahaha, Well I'm half way through my second one now, I put them out half way through see. But I must be making progress. A few days ago I would have been half way through a pack of 20 by this time

 

 

NO MORE Smoking! haha jk hope your doing better today.

Day 31. Not feeling special or magical just a little bit better. Have no intention of contacting her. Just continuing down the current road, just want to see where it leads. Who knows.

Can i just get over this girl already? I know she is not right for me but the feelings are still there. I am not picking up the phone when/ if she calls. The girl of my dreams would not treat me like she did. When she realizes that things wont work with her ex then what? Me again, i dont think so. How can people do some of the things they do and hold their head up high? I would feel horrible.

today was so so. I missed her at times its not as bad but i still want her by my side.

You'll be ok soon. I started the challenge and it has been a rollercoaster but I'm feeling fine now. You will be too...

I am fighting NC hard right now. This is the toughest it has ever been...

Sorry you are feeling bad. My good mood is fading slightly too. If she does move in with him there is absolutely nothing you can do. Call me crazy but it may even be a good thing and with it being a new relationship it will certainly put a strain on things and the cracks will appear much sooner. If she does force things with him because she doesn't want to be alone it is doomed to fail because the relationship isn't based on anything good x

Well this is her ex so it is not that new andI have not heard anything solid I just know that if she wanted to move in with me so quickly I know she is doing the same thing to him. She never really got to know me that's the thing that hurts the most. I know I am a 10 times better guy than he is.

Today is really bad for me. I didn't sleep last night. I am coming under the realization or possibility that she will move in with the new guy by the end of the summer. I need to continue the NC and heal. I don't think it will last but she may force things just so she won't be alone.

You seem so stong, you should be proud of yourself. he seems like a willyhead anyway!

Ya know if someone treats me bad I usually can put up a wall and walk away without a scratch but this one cut deep. I thought she would be around a while, like a long while but she left. I keep reminding myself that the next girl will be even better. My current ex won't hold a candle to her (when I meet her).

It seems to get better for a day or 2 then it gets worse again and then better, but everytime it gets worse, its worse than the time before if that makes any sense. I just don't feel like I can deal with it all anymore but there is no way out of it. Through the day I think of everyone on here and how they are feeling the same way and it's just sad Are you feeling ok today?

Not going to lie some days I'm crushed especially because I know she is back with her ex. And I have to see him everyday at work. I hold my head high even though it hurts me.

Its the evening of day 17 and its just terrible. I almost texted a few times and broke down and part of me just wants to see him to do some more begging and pleading This is so crap, but all of you already know that.

Its cool... it will get better I was doing the same thing...

Thanks. Glad you are starting to feel better. It's usually worse in the mornings. I'm sure I will start to feel better as the day goes on What day are you on now?

Supposed to be day 27 but remember she called me on thursday so I guess I have to start over.

After another almost sleepless night I woke up to day 17. It's a bright sunny day, I'm exhausted and it feels like day one all over again

 

 

Hey chin up. I'm starting to feel better and you will too...

Today was really bad for me. The weather here has been beautiful and she and the new man (back with the ex) I'm sure are having a great time. While I'm here with the blues. I feel like day one all over again. She also called me last thursday and we talked for a few. I just wished I knew how she felt. I guess that is the million dollar question.

Today was a tough day for me. Whenever I'm down about something I would call her, talk for a minute and everything would just melt away. Gosh I miss that.

Her first words were "I didn't think you would pick up the phone" I kept it cool and talked about work she did the same. I talked briefly about my new living conditions likewise she did the same and I told her I had to go. Short and sweet. I will not speak to her again until she calls. She needs to want that not me.

21 days, I will not pick up the phone but I would like it if she calls. Just to know that she still thinks about me.

Guys its almost like I sensed it. She just called my work phone and I picked up! I kept it real short and told her I had to go to a meeting. Did I do the wrong thing by picking up the phone?

21 days, I will not pick up the phone but I would like it if she calls. Just to know that she still thinks about me.