-jenn-

hi i no exaclty how you feel and it was soooo bad my friend ali hes 28 and lives in london uk and i live like 200 miles from him and he says he is in love with me we have been talking over msn and phone for a year now and he wasnted to move on with out me he broke my heart and i was so cross and frustated i took and od not a big one and nothing happened but i started talking to him again and i had the cough for ages and he like do you want to die like joking and i said yes and then he said you havent' changed at all have you . i have been suicidal for 4 and a half years because my dad died and i have depression which isn't geting any better. its so good to no that you can see my point and that you can kind of understand i would like to talk to you again .

xxx jenn.

call social services and get there help to find you some housing.

woooooooooooooo he is your child you should do anything you can to be with him including living with you mum it might not be what you want but your son needs you.

heya i have tried to kill my self 8 times i really hated life a few months back i feel pretty down now but thats because i have been ill for a long time. How long have you been feeling like this . as someone said before we wont give you advice on how to kill yourself i think you no that much without asking . thing can really get you down but remember there is always some one worse of than you. I had to see a dead body my dads i found him when i was 12 and it complety rocked my world so much and i didn't tell anyone how i felt for 3 years until the school told my mum which i a long story but i am happy that i didn't die at the moment . I think i was more afraid of dying naturally in pain and not having control but the control is there if you kill your self . i hope you re think your options i am 16 at art college and about to get a job and become a volunteer in the ambulances i don't want to die any more. Good luck and i will always talk if you need it . jenn.

hiya i hosted a few parties and every one has always enjoyed them its my b day soon and i aint haveing a party this year i am going into town with a load of mates. when i had the parties i kept the food simple and plenty of it . ask people see what they say .

he called me the other day he made me really upset he was ggoing on about my cough and then he said "do you want to die hahah" i sia dyes he said "you aint changed at all have ya?" no .

its ok we have ended it all now.

hi , i had the worst week of my life with all what i said above . My grandad had a heart attack and has a infection aswel . The whole family is really worried. I will go and visit him again next week . This just means more of what i was already thinking. People will always leave me .!!!

are you only allowed one topic?

my friend is going to see the goo goo dolls soon.

heya , its doesn't really matter what gender your friends are i don't think be greatful you have friends i sure am . Don't worry talk to yuor guy friend the next time you see him and ask him why he didn't call you but don't make a big thing about it . Good luck .

jenn

I lost my closed guy friend yesturday .He said he loved me and had said it for ages . I never loved him the way he loved me he wanted me as his partner . I am 16 and he is 28 . I want to experience life more before i commit to anything this big. He made me feel so bad . I would always be on his mind when ever he went on dates. I really hate him now . He didn't ring me in 5 days and we would normally talk for ages every day . I now finding it really hard to see any point in making new friends and making realationhips with people. I have just started college which is great and a fresh start for me but my friends there are alreay worried.

because of this guy i took some tablets last night to make me feel different i am ok and feel fine.

i can't trust any one .

jenn