tiger_lily57

No one wants her, she is that mean and nasty, I have seen her nice side on very rare occasions.

We only have one home where we live and they WILL NOT take her back, she wanted to go for visits and they ABSOLUTELY NOT........

To get some advice and to vent and to talk to actually people, to see if I am a bad person to feel the way I do....

I have no family and I have only one friend and we lost contact since I started this job almost a year ago. I hate my life, I am alone for going on eight years, but I like who I am,

I like the person that I am.

Who am I? I am just a whisper of a shadow.

Who am I? I am just a whisper of a shadow.

Who would you like me to be?

Tell me your song and I will carry your tune.

Who am I? I am just a whisper of a shadow.

Who would you like me to be?

Tell me your words and I will be your story.

Who am I? I am just a whisper of a shadow.

Who would you like me to be?

Reveal your heart to me and I will be your friend for all eternity.

By tiger_lily57 8/16/06

I soon will be fifty and growing old is a process that we just can not avoid no matter what we do, it will always bite us in the butt... But we can slow the process down and accept it with grace, otherwise we will just make ourselves miserable and life is to short for this that we can not stop...

It took her daughter three months to find me and I was the only one who applied for the job… When I went to apply for this job, two employment counselors told me that she had a mean reputation, but in the same breath I needed a job real bad. They even had a pool on how long I would last. Most gave me till Christmas of last year. But now I am tired I have been doing this for a year Sept. 24 I asked her daughter for 3day vacation and her first words were I don't know if I can handle her for that long... She always brings her daughters to help her when she comes.

Have you mentioned to her that this is bothering you, and maybe talk to her about very nicely. Does she treat you like one of the family??

Even as mean as this lady is if I quit she will end up in a nursing home and she 89yrs and she has become very attach to me. I inturn am becoming more and more, unhappy, sad,

I have no family living I am competely alone, I can't look for another job without having a place to stay and a phone number......

I really hate my life, I am trapped and I do not know how to free myself.

I am a care provider, I live with my client, and she has dementia and Alzheimer's.

She is naturally mean, nasty, cantankerous, liar and a few that would get bleep out. This was her reputation before the illnesses took hold and now it is at least 15% worse.

I have no family support, except by phone once a night and sometimes that is worse, because they upset her and I have to deal with the aftermath....

She does not understand me having a day off. The other caregivers that relieve me will not listen to what I have to say in order for it to go smoothly, when I come back after having a few hours off, I pay for them with the verbal abuse from this woman…

The caseworker that she has is upset because they had her in the nursing home and the daughter got her out with my help… So she won't help me, she is very short and yells at me if I need clarification on anything.

I feel like I am in a desert and I found the only quicksand in the whole desert and I am sinking.

Who am I? I am just a whisper of a shadow.

Who would you like me to be?

Tell me your song and I will carry your tune.

Who am I? I am just a whisper of a shadow.

Who would you like me to be?

Tell me your words and I will be your story.

Who am I? I am just a whisper of a shadow.

Who would you like me to be?

Reveal your heart to me and I will be your lover for all eternity.

By Sandkat 8/16/06

You need to go talk to child protective services, I so sorry that you feel the way you do.. But you need to get out of there. You might have a chance if you could get a better environment. You are only 15 so you have some time to change things, but you are the one who has to do it. Life can be wonderful and beauitful, trust me I have been where you are now. I thought the same way you do... But first you need to get out of that box that you are in. That is the first goal... Then go from there. DRUGS ARE NOT THE ANSWER, THEY LIE TO YOU AND MAKE YOU BELIEVE THINGS NOT ARE NOT REAL... YOU can talk to me any time you want, I will listen.

Back to Life

You deserve better, he is playing on your emotions inorder to keep you from breaking up with him. What about all that you have given up and tried to do inorder to make this relationship work?? Doesn't that count also. You have alot of life ahead of you. Break up with him and look forward to someone better, because they are out there....

You have every right to be upset. But instead of the text message you sent, I would of asked straight out what is going on?? And dealt with it accordingly.