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Ah..I'll just go. I'm under so much stress right now. I have no clue why I put myself under more. I'm going to fix it and hopefully work up the courage to tell him to get lost...I just can't tell him person considering the fact that he has NO porblem with hitting females.

Heh, I'm a depression patient myself. I've been in therapy for nearly a decade. My therapist was a senior at Wake when I was a little freshman. She's helped out with some things but not with the fact that I'm a major push over.

I know that I love my fiance and I know that I want to marry him. We've been engaged for two years, and together for six. I'm sure that I want to be with him but I'm just worried that my ex won't take a hint that we don't want him around. I mean I hinted that I didn't want him around yesterday when he came by and rang my doorbell who knows how many times and I just stood at the door in plain sight waiting for him to leave. I'm not great with pushing people away purposely. I know that it's a psychological issue that causes it because when I was eleven I pushed my father away and he never came back.

No, my fiance is really part of it. I told the lie but my fiance is going along with it, thereforeeee there is a WE in this. I've already admitted that it's wrong so how about it just be dropped.

That's just it, we don't want him around anymore and we figured if we lied to him and he found out he would go away. I'm a push over and he's more of a pusher.

It's not that I invited it again, it's more of a he did. I admit I'm a pushover. It's hard for me to simply tell someone to back off.

Heh my ex is not my friend. I was willing to be his friend but he did some things that I couldn't forgive him for.

Ah yes I'm sure I'm willing to commit to him but I've always been a dramatic person anyways.

Oh wow, I didn't realize how funny that face looked....hmm, reminds me of my reflection.

Ah, a pyschology major! That explains it. Just kidding, but yeah...this is not a rational idea.

Yeah but I am going a bit crazy over so many things that rational thinking isn't in the picture. Wedding in two weeks and we still don't have a Flower girl OR a Maid of honor.

I study emotions then mess with them...heh. Maybe next time he decides to come creeping over to my house I'll just tell him how this is hurting me for him to come back just randomly. Actually, I guess the reason I'm going a bit insane now is that I have a wedding in two weeks.

Heh, ok maybe it was wrong but it was a heat of the moment thing. Of all people to do something like that I'm a Psychology major. Ah well, everyone does something insane at one point in their life.

No, that's where no one understands. We want to hurt him. We want to know his feelings toward me so we can crush them. I may be a bit immature to do this but considering the fact that I've dealt with this guy coming in and out of my life randomly for the past six years.

He deserves to have his feelings messed with considering the fact that he messed with not only my feelings but everyone elses who cares about me as well.

*The one... (Typo)

Ok I should not have asked for any opinions on this to begin with because everyone assumes that he's the victim without even knowing him or everything HE'S done. Maybe I should have mentioned the fact that HE dumped me and HE cheated on me and HE went after all my closest friends after the break up and that HE drugged me and killed our child. See that's the problem with society, they assume that he one who is being tricked a bit is the major victim.

No, It's more of a WE need to know his feelings. Like my earlier post, he has been hinting things and it's making my fiance and I very uncomfortable. We want to know if he still has feelings so that we can talk to him and HOPEFULLY get him away from us. Now that he's moved back he's tried his BEST to get me to go to his house and get drunk KNOWING that when I'm drunk I'm extremely slutty. When my fiance found out he asked me to come over he flipped out completely. Our goal is for him to find out it's a lie eventually so he'll back off. Sorry I didn't clear the whole story up in my previous post so I'm trying to now.

Nah, my ex isn't that smart either. He's one of those guys who are in their earlier twenties and still don't know the different between expect and aspect.

He does talk to him but that was before he moved back here. They talked on the phone and that's how my fiance wanted it to stay. Yes my fiance knows about this as well.

Oops, typo. If he finds out that I told him a lie....Sorry, I'm so stressed out that my typing skills are failing to work today.

I also understand that if he finds out I was told him a lie he would hate me but honestly at this point, that's fine I just want him out of my life again.

No, I don't have those sort of feelings for him. My only feelings for my ex are friend wise but lately my fiance and I have been having issues with my ex coming back into our life. He started talking to me again yesterday and I found out he was single again, he's been hinting that he wants me to dump my fiance. So I told him that I did to find out why he's came back, why he's giving those hints and such things as that.

I know that but see, the whole story is that my ex is my fiance's best friend. My fiance also wants to know if he still has feelings for me so that he can talk to him and try to get things straightened out.

I just told my ex that I dumped my fiance to see how he would react. After all the advice I've been given on my past threads about my issues thinking about my ex, I finally came to a conclusion. I only think about him because I wonder if he still has ANY feelings for me...as a friend or as more. So I told him that I had broke up with my fiance and that I would really appreciate someone to talk to and go out with (as friends) for the day. Is a bad thing that I'm using a lie to find out my ex's feelings toward me?

Six years, he only started doing this a year ago. I don't know whether he's just gotten sick of it of what. (I'm bi-polar so mood swings happens often)