Wartortle

My plan was to solve mental health issues.then once I am in a better place. Try it with her again. we both wanted children after we brought a home. So we had our own place in the suburbs to raise our children. We also both wanted to get married

Background we broke up 3 weeks ago after a 8year relationship. We have a long lease of an apartment in the city. We were friends 2 years prior. So we been seeing each other for 10years breakup my view - I am suffering mental health problems from a very well paid health care job. It’s made me scared to go out, I lost so much weight. I become selfish and all I cared was to make money so I could quit the job and find an easier job and to buy our first house. I took her for granted and focused too much on myself. Stress also reduced how many times we had sex. I have quit this job and have started counselling. her view - part of her acknowledges the stress issues but another part of her thinks I didn’t love her. Didn’t find her attractive. Therefore she closed her self off as she got hurt. post break up first week after she came every day for a week. To take her items back. Also help me pack up as I am moving back in with my parents until I solve my mental health issues. We talked at length all week about the relationship - she said if we got back together how will things change - she said many times did we do the right thing to break up and how she wishes we didn’t have to pack up - she said she wants me in her life. She cried on the last time she saw me as she thought it would be the last time we ever spoke. - every time she came she didn’t want to leave. She stayed and gave long hugs and said it’s hard to say good bye. - she said there is no one else and she isn’t wanting to date any one else - she said she finds me attractive but she can’t let me in right now or even try signs she doesn’t want to comeback - she told me she can’t say right now if she can give another chance as she is hurt - she wants space - I didn’t understand but she said something along the lines to heal for hurt and grieve the relationship - she told me she doesn’t want to give a false idea that there maybe another chance - I said okay. I will stop trying. She “what are you going to give up already” what should I do there are a lot of mixed signals. She is really hurt. I think she is in love but not in love with me. I do really want to try again and make it work. right now we are in limited contact. Mainly to sort out the lease and joint accounts etc