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Yes, that I what I meant sorry if it was misinterpreted. My mother, father and all three of my siblings have a foot fetish and I have known for a couple of years now so it has been in my thoughts. They have each told me (not at the same time) when having a conversation on topics as such.

Hello everyone, I am new to this platform and this is a rather long-winded story so thank you for your patience. I may have ruined my reputation at school. I am a 19 year old woman who goes to a small and close-knit college. I only have 3 close friends in real life, especially one who I can credit for saving my life in the first place. I have known him since middle school and we both trust each other very much. Around yesterday, I took him aside and politely asked him if he can do me a favor and give me a foot massage because my feet hurt; I was lying about my feet hurting but I really wanted a massage. He thought about it and then asked me what will “I get in return?”, I offered 20$ and he graciously accepted my favor. Later that day, I asked if after classes are over tommorow is an okay time to enact said favor. All of a sudden he switched and screamed infront of everyone “I am not rubbing your feet! Leave me alone!” which incredibly embarrassed me in front of the class. Then he proceeded to tell everyone in that room what I had asked for which made the class disgusted and hailed angry words at me. I left school early and later cried on the way home. In recent days, (this may be a little T.M.I. ) I have started to think I have a foot fetish. I’ve secretly started watching foot p*rn and buying various socks/stockings to wear. I have always thought about it since it is common in my family but the concept of liking feet never clicked until recently especially with the p*rnography. I haven’t told anyone about this at all. And I feel as my attraction towards feet is growing more by day (I mean my own feet for reference). I thought I could trust my close friend because we can chat about anything without judgement/be there for each other, we have gotten initimate a few times before and couple of months prior he asked me if he can give me a foot massage and though I really wanted it but I had to decline because me and him were in public. I don’t know what switched in him to make him say that and embarass me, I still feel very upset my this because he’s never acted like this before. I feel as if he is going to tell more people tomorrow (my friend doesn’t have a cell phone) and make my low reputation even worse. Any tips on how to fix what I have done? I don’t care about what others may think of me now but I really want to keep my best friend in my life. TLDR: I have ruined my reputation and possibly my friendship, I thought I could trust my close friend with a foot massage. He embarassed me infront of everyone. I recent think I have a foot fetish and it is escalating by the day. How can I fix my friendship & this fetish?