My first memory of feeling suicidal that I’m sure of is when I was 9. I’m 18 at the moment and plan on doing it next year on July 24, 2025. I won’t say how, but it’s a peaceful way to go if done properly. I’m giving myself enough time to save up money and to spend some extra time with family. So it’s not anything major, like as in the date. I’ve tried therapy, meds, CBT, DBT, have been to mental hospitals as both a kid, the first time was 16 and as an adult, talking about how I’m feeling, coping skills, etc. I’m tired of living and fighting and I should live or die on my terms. I know it will hurt my family. I’m writing notes right now. I’m thinking about inviting my teacher to my funeral. Is that a bad idea or no? Is there any last things I should do or things I should do.
