I've been married 15 years.
My husband has secretly run up 60k debt. I found out last year and he was just angry with me rather than remorseful. Since then he's lost his job and struggling to find employment. He has health issues too, just for context.
We don't have sex although he watches porn he's shown no interest in me really for 5 years.. we've been intimate twice in that time although I've tried to initiate things...
But the worst thing I'm struggling with is how he talks to me. He called me a prat today, mutters under his breath in amger at me, shouts at me sometimes. Last year he was calling me lazy...
But then there are other times when he's kind and nice to me and it's like none of this has happened.
I feel a bit like I'm going mad. Fantasising about divorce or just whacking him over the head with a frying pan - I wouldn't do that, I'm not violent.
Then if I do end our relationship I am at an age where I won't get the option to have another kid. Mind you I'm probably not going to get one now am I? We don't have the money for ivf and we're not having sex...
Everything is a bit of a mess... Am I wrong for being unhappy/ wanting more?
