My boyfriend and I have been together for a couple of months. I come from a very religious environment where saving yourself for marriage is a big thing.
When I first started dating him, he was okay with the idea of us not having sex. But after a while, we started having arguments that always led back to me not loving him enough because I wouldn't sleep with him.
We even almost broke up at one point because apparently I was too stubborn since I wouldn't prove my love to him.
I did not want to end our relationship so I gave in and we slept together. I never talked to him about it but since then I've hated myself a bit for giving in.
Just last week, I discovered he was relocating in March to another country.
He had known since before we met that he wasn't going to be here for long, and he still went ahead to have a relationship with me, knowing he'd leave me behind at some point.
Despite knowing, he still pressured me into sleeping with him and I gave in because he was my first boyfriend and I thought he really loved me.
I thought he really loved me, but I can't help but feel like he was using me to pass the time or something.
And I won't ever get it back, I'll never go back to who I was before I met him, and when I eventually get married I won't have kept myself for my husband.
He left to find somewhere to stay before relocating finally, but he'll be back in about 2 weeks time. We're still technically together but I can't help wondering if we should have split up by now.
Should I break up with him when he comes back or should I just let him leave and cut him off?
