I'm not trying to minimize anything. I posted here because I had concerns and doubts. It's easy from a bistander's perspective to say "drop everything and leave". But when you have been in a relationship with someone for some years, that you invested a lot in that person and your future together, that you love them deeply - I mean, that you said yes to marrying them! - to walk away is a heartbreaking decision to make.
When I left my ex husband, our relationship kind of ran its course. We were trying to hold things together for the kids but didn't have much love left for each other. And although separating was obviously difficult, I felt emotionally at peace that it was the right decision. I was ready to move in.
In the present situation, I just feel an immense heartache. I have a hard time accepting, to be honest, that he cannot change, that the situation will not improve