So I am online dating and it generally goes normal - chat, meet and either make a friend or it just mutually disappears.
I then matched and met with a much older guy and felt a connection with him. Not sure if he was just a good looking man.
Before our first meeting he had made me feel bad for not messaging him in a few days but I realized he is the type of person that jokes around. We finally decide to meet. Initially we agreed on the Friday night. He cancelled as it was raining (storming) and he got lazy. Which got me little disappointed but didn't take too much into it. He postponed for the Saturday which I immediately said no as I had a prior event (was my mum's birthday). So we decided on the Sunday.
On Sunday morning he called saying that he had sprained a nerve on his back at the gym (and he has a problem with his back). I understood and said no problem, wished him well and just carried on. He then agreed to meet on Tuesday, which he cancelled as he had a last minute meeting at work and then finally agreed to meet on the Thursday. And he met after I followed up if we were still on.
The meeting was really wonderful. I got nervous but he seemed to be the perfect guy for me at the meeting. Matured, good looking, family driven and career driven. We left the night with a little peck on the lips. I messaged him when I was back at home and told him I had a good time. He replied the same.
A week went by and I didn't hear from him so I messaged. He again "joked" saying how I could ignore him for so long. I apologized and also in a witty way asked him where is the rule book on who must text when. He ignored the comment and said he was going to bed.
I tried being witty all a long and also tried my best not to be needy. But also I did tell him that he scares me and I doubt myself but I really showed I wanted to try.
After a few days after again seeing me on the online dating he message. We chatted and again tried remaining cool. So we decided to meet again. He was going to visit me at my place on the Saturday. Because I really liked him and wanted to impress him I prepared to cook for me. On Saturday I messaged in the morning to confirm if we still on. As per default and not hearing from him in the last 2 days I thought we were. After few hours he replied saying he has the flu and apologized for not messaging earlier. Yes my heart fell. My immediate response was sorry to hear that and hope he feels better.
Sitting with a very sad and disappointment feeling alone in my apartment looking at all the prep I did to cook for him I messaged him saying that I didn't think that this was going to work out and that I was disappointed as I was gonna cook for him. He replied saying I am hitting a man while he is down. I then replied that he was a big boy and will be ok. He then deleted my number.
Although I told him off I still feel bad. Was I showing him a needy attitude that disgusted him. Why did he keep cancelling on me? I am generally a happy and confident person. Yet he made me doubt everything I said.
I now am sad and still want to message him. But I know it's my ego. But I did like him in person.
Did I just let a potential guy go?
