I've worked with the same guy for 6 years and we have always got on well. We have similar roles and responsibilities within a pressured workplace, I have a slight position of seniority over him and we are both governed by an overall boss that we are both accountable to.
In the last 6 months our overall boss has started to become flirty with the guy and although it is not reciprocated and he handles it well, it has changed the team dynamic. He finds her difficult as she can be intense and unpredictable to work for and has made it clear many times that he finds me better to work for, as I take a more reasoned, calm and assured approach, he respects how hard I work and seems professionally in awe. He looks out for me, compliments my work and work ethic and protects me when things get tough, but all in a subtle way.
So, im not really sure why this has suddenly happened, but over the last two months particularly, Ive found myself really falling for him, but feel this is now just making me socially awkward around him and shows me to him in a really poor light! I am now overanalysing our interactions which is making me struggle to make eye contact even! Even if my feelings were reciprocated I am dping everything to make him feel im an idiot! It is a classic 'I love him so much when he is gone, but when he's near me, I don't let on' scenario. I think as I've become more irritated and protective of him from our overall bosses affections, then I've realised I'm the one who has fallen head over heels! And the poor man probably just wishes we would both leave him alone! We are both in other very long standing relationships so nothing can ever come of it, i just don't know now how to stop feeling this way.
