We have 1 together, 1 from my previous marriage and 2 from his previous marriage. The older 3 have already been through a divorce and we swore we would never do this to him. But to him his journey is about him and only him and if he didn't do what he did he would have committed suicide. He swears now that he wouldn't do anything of the sort but he said it around the kids and now they live in fear.
He's in therapy so he can fix his problems and never do this to someone else again and of course find himself.
He is stating that it was a sham, that I was a companion for 12 years to help him with his insecurities. Affairs im not sure. There might be now as he is on his phone a lot. He has always been a big researcher and he says that is what he is doing all the time. There was suspicion that he developed feelings for his secretary. I spoke with her and if there is it is most definitely one sided.
He plans to move out in the next 6-8 months. Thats his "plan" as he doesn't want to live in limbo and hinder his personal growth. He says that leaving the marriage and home is at the advice of his therapist as he won't be able to start said journey until that is done.
Intimacy was good up until about 2 months ago. He went to a funeral at the end of August for the loss of one of his employees. The man, a marine, has never been affected by death but he said that this funeral was eye opening for him and that he realized he has done nothing with his life, no one would show up to his funeral and that there would be no cool stories to tell at his funeral. He feels like he has made nothing of his life.
As far as before at the beginning of the relationship he was dealing with a lot of emotional baggage about leaving his first marriage, leaving the marine corp and lots of unresolved feelings. He went to therapy then but nothing came out of it and he accepted this was just the way life was. He said he thought it would get better or just the way it was to be. Then after the funeral he said he was tired of waking up angry every day and feeling like he was missing out.
I am also in therapy and working on myself.