Hello, I lately enraged a close friend, the reason is not relevant… I wanted to apologize to her and she told me that I could visit her. When I was there we had a brief conversation and suddenly she tried to kiss me. I was shocked and also intimidated since she’s also way taller than me… but of course I freaked out and it ended that she sexual abused me. I wont talk about details but it was long. And she did in a nasty way that my body “ reacted“. I’m not traumatized but the problem is that she hurt my pride since I think that s… before marriage is not normal, at least for me ( I am bosniak/ turkish but I live in Europe now) and I am also homophobic. So she it did to humiliate me because she knows both of it…. My boyfriend made a marriage proposal to me but I can’t even look in his eyes.. she tried a few times to phone me but I didn’t react… I also feel disgusted from myself because somehow she did “ confuse“ me… any advices except therapy?
