For context: I know I ruined any chances at dating her; when we were still in high school, I asked her out and didn't get an answer. Should've taken the hint. (I did not) Instead, when I went on vacation I said something really cringey: "If you dont tell me now, I might die in a plane crash!" I hate thinking about that, she ended up saying no (for good reason, jesus christ). I asked if we could still be friends, she said "Yes, of course."
We still hang out, in fact we just went camping with a few other friends this past week. I thought I was finally getting over her, I was moving on, but we were bunking in a tent, and we were up late at night talking to each other. Then it hit me like a ton of bricks; I still like her. I know she doesn't like me back, I know there's no chance. I know Im stupid. Then on the ride back home, love songs were playing continuously, then I went to work and overheard my coworkers talk about their love life going great, then I had a mental breakdown at work. I know Im dumb and stupid and dont matter to anyone, I just wish my brain would shut up sometimes. Idk what to do anymore, it has not been a good week for me.
For context: I know I ruined any chances at dating her; when we were still in high school, I asked her out and didn't get an answer. Should've taken the hint. (I did not) Instead, when I went on vacation I said something really cringey: "If you dont tell me now, I might die in a plane crash!" I hate thinking about that, she ended up saying no (for good reason, jesus christ). I asked if we could still be friends, she said "Yes, of course." We still hang out, in fact we just went camping with a few other friends this past week. I thought I was finally getting over her, I was moving on, but we were bunking in a tent, and we were up late at night talking to each other. Then it hit me like a ton of bricks; I still like her. I know she doesn't like me back, I know there's no chance. I know Im stupid. Then on the ride back home, love songs were playing continuously, then I went to work and overheard my coworkers talk about their love life going great, then I had a mental breakdown at work. I know Im dumb and stupid and dont matter to anyone, I just wish my brain would shut up sometimes. Idk what to do anymore, it has not been a good week for me.