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Yeah im just going to stop drinking for a long period of time so I can let my body fix itself in the time it needs and see where I can go from there.

Yeah im going to go to my local GP and see what they say and see if they could book me in for a more in depth test at the hospital or something.

Yeah the next time I go out im just going to go for the social reasons and not to drink myself away that night. I am trying to cut down/stop completely because it is also very expensive.

Am I? I mean this is the first time I've drunken 100+ units this quick before.

Yeah I mean im stopping but sometimes like on thursday/friday/saturday I drink with friends and I know I could just say I dont want to go drinking but its hard when we all have a class time.

I don't drive at all so thankfully I don't drive under the influence but im just trying to stop now before I go to uni otherwise things could turn sour if I don't stop.

Im not sure why im drinking so much, I mean I just cant stop in a way. Like the other day I was drunk whilst talking to my friends and ran out of beer. So I ran up to my local supermarket and bought another 2 packs of 4 beers just so I could carry on drinking.

Yeah im going to go to one at some point this week just to make sure that im all okay.

Yeah I was drinking beer but I cannot lie im going to go for a liver scan as im not going to risk anything.

Ummm well I mean I had some sharp pains in my heart area to which it said it may possibly be alcohol damage (or something along those lines)

Hello I was wondering would yous say 100 units of alcohol in 3 weeks is a lot? Just to put of context behind it, im 18.

Well theres no need to worry about the relationship anymore. I have decided to pull the plaster off and end the relationship for good. She has removed me off snapchat/instagram etc. I may try and follow back in a month or so to see how shes doing but we'll see. I ended things because my mental health was at a low point. And I think she was the main reason why. Instead I have now signed up to tinder and now on the look for a casual thing. Was that the best idea in the world? Probably not. But I feel so much happier now that I've done it.

ahh right I see yeah thats fair enough. Well I will think about going tomorrow or thursday. But thank you I appreciate it. This pain really does hurt and I just feel so sick i the stomach.

Yeah I think I should but do I need a parent with me or can I just walk in and get evulated by myself (as I am 18)?

Yeah I mean we are speaking now about it all and im not sure if we should have rules in the break. OR should we? Like she said its a break so we can work on ourselves and get better mental health. Like she said she really wants us to work so surely thats her saying "I want to have a break to work on ourselves but have another try when we feel like we are both ready". But now you see her saying we should have a break has caused me to overthink really badly of "Is this just a nice way of saying I want to end things so she can see other people" OR "im overthinking it all maybe its just a little break to help each other and the relationship?"

Ahh life really does slap us in the face sometimes you know. One minute you're really happy and really enjoying life and next minute it all goes south and you just feel like nothing is worth the pain anymore. I remember at the start of 2023 I was really happy because everything was going right with me for once and now in April/May I am now considering get a diagnostics check (if thats how to word it) for depression and bipolar disorder. Man where did it all go wrong eh?

Ahhh well just to update everyone with the situation. We have both decided to take a break from each other for a little bit as we both need to work on our mental health badly. Im not sure if this is a good or bad thing as it could be the last time that we speak. OR it could be a genuine break and we come back stronger but im not sure. However, we did say that when we come back we will start from square one (fresh start) as this will benefit us in the long run hopefully. As she said that she really does want us to work. However, one answer I need to know is do breaks actually work or is it just an excuse to get out of the relationship you are in just to find someone else to speak to.

Ah yeah I get where you are coming from. I will have a talk with her tonight and come up with options that we can approach and then we will mutually decide which one to take.

Yeah thank you I will ask that tonight then.

Yeah I mean I obviously don't want things to end because when we are together we are fine and have 0 problems. But yet im not going go to force a relationship that isn' there.

Yeah I understand I can see why/how it causes a lot of stress and aggravation. But yeah I will ask her on a call when she comes home from work later today.

ahh yeah I understand that, I think what im going to do is take every day as it comes and see what happens. If it doesn't work out then thats just life and I just have to move on and maybe try again later in the future. Yeah I think she's scared to lose me or something I dont know because a while back she said she was overthinking and I was asking what you overthinking about etc. And she said that she's scared that im going to leave her in August before I go to university. To which I replied and reassured her that I wasn't going to.

Ah yes damn I knew it was fine. So it was just her overreacting over nothing basically. I mean shes told me before that her previous relationships have been toxic so I think she just assumes everything I say is in a toxic manner or something like that but im not sure. You think im right? Yeah we are both young (both 18). But aha no I haven't and thats mainly because I wanted to try and focus on myself during high school but it never happened as I just wasnt mature enough.

Ah right so basically like 2 weeks ago I messaged her "I'ved noticed you've been distant recently. You okay? Anything up?" in those exact words. And I got an angry phone call saying "how dare you say that" etc. Which meant that she must've taken it pretty heavily. Before I sent the message I googled to see if sending a message like that is okay or just ignorant. Both google and my brother said it was completely normal as its just basic communication. So I sent it and it has led to this whole situation unfolding. To put context behind the message, I sent her the message because in the day she was a bit slow with messaging. Now im not one of those people that get upset when I don't get a reply within 1 hour. But she didn't reply for 12 hours that day. So naturally my brain started overthinking that I did something wrong or she wasn't feeling herself. Hence the checkup. Do you think I done the right thing by asking her that question?

Yeah I mean she has brought up that we need to see each other more which I understand but currently I have no job and am having to use whatever is in my bank to pay for tickets to see her and everything. So sometimes I may not have the money to see her. Which is frustrating and I understand that but I am currently looking for jobs around me but they always lead to an end block which just lowers my esteem every time.