A new guy came to work. We work very closely together. We work very well together. We soon became friends but strictly joking around mainly about work. Then he really surprised me by asking me out. I was very shocked. I thanked him for the compliment (when I should have gracefully declined) and asked time to think about it. I finally told him that due to close work proximity and because of something very complicated and difficult I am working through that is using up all of my energy I can't.
This isn't true. If I was attracted to him I would have gone out with him. (not an issue with our company) But I didn't want to say that to him so I copped out. He got a little pushy but I kept saying no and he dropped it. We still have to work closely together. He assures me nothing has changed.
He took over my former position. My former position is VERY intense. There is no outlet in that position, no one to consult or get help from. It is a lot to deal with. It bleeds into nights and weekends. So he reaches out to me on his lunch break, to vent, consult, go over things. This turns into joking and talking about shared interests. I try to keep it strictly work but it feels cold, abrupt and unkind.
Then I think I made a mistake. He bought me a couple gifts in the past (Christmas, just because once). I specifically made sure not to reciprocate. But he did me a huge favor (HUGE) at work and I felt I needed to return the favor so I bought him a meaningful gift as a thank you. He has gone on a bit about the gift and how much it means to him coming from me and how special it is etc... He's commented multiple times on the fact that I gave him a gift.
Am I "leading" him on? I don't want his feelings towards me to grow. If leading him on, I don't see a way to change things.