Ami33

Thank you so much for all of your replies. I feel horrible about this. She is amazing and I don’t want to ruin it. I have some work to do. I honestly wish I didn’t unsend that “I love you” text. I was just messing with her but now that I see I can understand why she is upset about it. She has been played before numerous of times by her past and she is giving me the chance now that she is healed. I don’t want to hurt her at all. I need to grow tf up! @Kwothe28 no I’m not a troll or any of those things. I was just using my best friends account. She posted here before and said go some pretty good advice. Sometimes you need some advice from others on the outside looking in. But yes I am using her account with her permission. Sorry for any confusion.

I have been with my lady for a few months and she is amazing. She brings out the better in me. She knows what she wants. She is a true sweetheart. If I get home from work late and I haven’t ate she does fuss at me in the phone but ends up ordering me food, since I’m too tired to cook or she is unable to drive to me. She even is meal prepping for me so that I am able to eat better when I get home. I can literally talk to her about any thing with no judgement. I talk to her about my issues with my child mother and at times I’m cursing and yelling. Not at her but at the situation. But she is always there to listen and help me the best way she can to make it ok. Ordering me food and meal prepping for me may seem small to some but she really cares about my well being. She forgave me for DMing women on social media and I know her trust for me is tarnished. But she forgave me, and here I am not being serious when she is being serious. We both are goofballs. I have noticed now that when she just tries to talk about the relationship I tend to get weird. I start to make little jokes, knowing she is serious. I be knowing she is trying to have a serious conversation but the jokester in me comes out. I can tell in her voice it bothers her and she ends up getting off the phone afterwards. I don’t even know why I do this. I sent her a text late last night thanking her for everything. I was stupid and I sent a text sayin “I love you” and unsent it (on iPhone you can do that now) I did it as a joke but it really bothered her. I didn’t mean any harm. She got upset over it. She says that’s not a word she plays with. Today she told me how it made her feel but I played it off like an idiot, and she got off the phone to go to the gym after that. Now I’m sitting here in my thought feeling like I’m pushing her away with my jokes on serous times. She is a great woman and I don’t want to lose her. I am 37 she is 35.

I was with my bf for 6 months and we did have our ups and downs but we got through them. I have had a history of headaches and I went to get it checked out and it turned out that I had a small blood clot. I ended up stay in the hospital for about 3 or 4 days and was released to get on bed rest. So before I went in to see the doctor on the day of I tried so hard to contact my bf and I got no answer. I called I texted I sent him FaceTimes and everything. So I did try to contact him. I ended up having to turn my phone off because, I was preparing for my procedure to help remove this clot. My phone was off for the days during my recovery for about 2 and a half days. I turn my phone on and hoping my bf text me or something. They only text I got was “I’m sick of this I’m done” he left me a voicemail saying “ I’m done with you” this hurt me to my core. How could someone I love do this to me in my time of need. He didn’t pick up calls or anything from me. I get we didn’t talk those days but I tried so hard to tell him what was going on before anything happened and he didn’t answer (he said he was sleep). Fast forward to a couple hours ago he finally calls and all he is doing is screaming at me demanding that I show him a picture of my wristband and my hospital paperwork. Yes I could easily have shown him but it was hurtful how he was screaming at me and not even caring how I was feeling. Nothing I said mattered to him. Nothing. It was like nothing to him that I tried to tell him what was going on before I actually was admitted and taken to have my clot removed all he did was yelled and screamed for picture of my paperwork. I had to stand my own and not send it to him because, I know what I was doing and plus I’m still in recovery at home. It hurts how he is going right to the negative with me and assuming he knows that I’m lying. Why is my word not enough? Why is he treating me like this? I have been though a lot with him. I’ve had a woman pop up on him at his new place while I was there and she stalked and followed us around all until the police was involved. I’ve had instances where he really accidentally merged me into a call with him and another woman. I’ve known him to text other women while talking to me. But I stayed. I know it was stupid. But I did. I have always been accused of doing everything under the Sun by him. He even accused me being with another man when I was at my mom house and my brother was there and he heard him in the background. He makes me out to be such a ugly person. And here I am knowing I was in the hospital and he yells and demands proof and makes it seem like I’m lying. I was going to show him but he didn’t give me the respect I deserved I wanted to stand up for myself. He breaks up with me and hangs up in my face after I told him no. I just need advice on how to move on because, although I did nothing wrong this still hurts.