MEdwords

Several months ago I wrote for advice regarding an orgasm issue. At that time I was involved in a 5 yr relationship with a wonderful man with whom I had been faking orgasms. I have never had an orgasm and don't have the slightest idea about how to have one or what they feel like. At that time we had been talking about marriage and I felt conflicted as to whether I should tell him or not. I did tell him and he left me. And I feel particularly bad because I always had his feelings in mind with everything I did.

I can give myself orgasms but have never had one with another person. I worry constantly about taking too long and if he is getting tired. My b/f enjoys receiving oral sex but will not give so that's not a possibility for me.

I have been involved in a wonderful relationship with a great guy for over 5 years. I have never had an orgasm and to save face I have been faking them since the start. Now that we are talking about marriage I am torn as to whether I should tell him or not. I need some advice on what I should do.