yoda1949

Another aspect... The concert is near my home town so i'm going to need to recruit another old friend to go but it's so close to the concert i'm probably going to have to gift them the ticket. Which i'm not happy about but more awkard is it's going to appear that i'm so eager to be more friends again that I'm willing to gift them 150 bucks... awkward for both of us. I suppose I could also find a date on an app or dig up a former lady friend, at least she'd think she understood my motivation lol.

I was filling in data because it seems relevant to give an accurate understanding of the situation. As it was it appears I have the impression that this was an acquaintance from childhood that I roped into going to a concert that he never really wanted to go to and that wasn't the case. there have been several other incidents where I felt pretty disrespected, but I decided to let them go. Basically after the visit I mentioned were distant for a year or so then reconnected. I don't recall who put out the olive branch this last time, maybe it was me. Perhaps I have been the driving force it keeping a dead friendship going and maybe I should just let it go.

Well maybe... It could actually be a money thing, he has had employment issues lately. He did defiantly agree to go and I had mentioned it several times that were much further away from the actual event where he could have mentioned if he had changed his mind. I guess I could have locked down the payment but as 150 bucks out for a few months isn't hurting my finances and I assume if someone agree they agree, I shouldn't need to lock them in. It's a concert not a business transaction. Yes, they came on Friday and that was on Sunday. A few days, lol. To elaborate on the money bit though... I pretty easily twice what he makes and in that regard have grown to a place where I'm not needing to worry as much. Growing up he was the leader and me the follower and I think there is a bit of resentment that i'm not like I was growing up anymore. I used the shoe story because it was a succent example of what happened. There were more examples. You have me painted as the villain in this story and I don't think that's accurate. If I agree I agree and it's not on the other person to need to lock everything down. We're middleaged adults, if he didn't ever want to go like to imply he should have just said so six months ago or even any of the times I'd brought it up since. He reasons aren't really relevant, he can say no for any reason he likes but the onus is on him to say no. Frankly if I valued a person at all and had agreed I'd go anyway becuase I would value not destroying a friendship over 150 bucks or 3 hours of my time.

He stated he wanted to go and said it would be fun or something to that effect, not sure how much more enthusiastic one is supposed to be before I believe someone. Basically, if I ask and you agree it's a done deal. It's a three hour concert not a major life decision. As far as paying for the ticket, I assumed the day of the show. 150 bucks isn't cheap but I'm in a position where i can float it. This isn't really about the money though. As far as staying at my place, they were there for the weekend, but this was a few years back. I should add we text weekly. Usually just some BS funny things back and forth but that's how we've related. Further, just last week he texted me and said "I just wanted you to know I appreciate your friendship all these years". Maybe I gave the impression this was someone I generally had little to do with but that hasn't been the case, at least not the past few years.

What is my next move here... I have a friend that I have literally been friends with since I was three years old. We've drifted apart for periods of time throughout the years but there has really never been a time in my life when I didn't think of him as a friend (we're well into middle age now). There is a concert coming up that I mentioned to him at least six months ago and I though of him because we saw the same band when we were teenagers. I bought the tickets and mentioned it several times since then and I got tickets to the show near where we grew up even though it would be far easier to see a show near where I currently live. So I mentioned the show was coming up and he tells me he made plans that night to see a different band... Which is probably the worst excuse he could have come up with. It seems to tell me, I don't respect you enough to miss the plans I made because I either didn't bother to see when the plans I already made were or decided this new activity would be better and just waited until I pushed the issue to break the original plans. Several times I have been thinking of leaving the whole thing behind. In the past few years there have been other incidents, he seems to enjoy openly blowing past boundaries. For example he visited my house a few years back with his family and seemed to go out of his way to disrespect me and my house. For example I generally have people take shoes off, a day or two after they originally arrived I saw he was wearing them and asked him to take them off and he openly refused being like " I don't take shoes off" and left me with a choice of me escalating things in front of his wife and kid or letting him just blow past a boundry and fairly normal request. All the stuff about the concert was via text and I just left him I read.. Sometimes he makes stupid jokes so i wasn't 100% sure if this was one or not but since that was a week ago I assume it wasn't.

I was driving the other day and some kids were playing near the road (not close enough to be an issue but close enough to make me more alert) and it brought back an odd memory and I can't seem to make sense of some behavior I did as a child. I thought maybe someone here could help me make sense of it. So when I was around 8-10 I used to have to wait for a friend parents to pick me and sometimes my sister up to take us to a club we attended with their kids. We lived in the country and it was at night so very dark. I think my sister had the idea that we should lie in the road and roll off when a car came. So that what we did. This is strange enough behavior looking back but I basically got off on doing it. The closer the I let the car get to me the more I would get off, like orgasm like getting off. Like I said, I was around 8 so I didn't fully understand sex but it gave me a feeling very similar to an orgasm. On a few occasions I let the car get close enough that that had lights on me and were able to see me rolling away (I think I hid in the woods until they drive off). I don't recall anymore how often I actually did this but more than one night and I was bolder and let the car get closer when my sister wasn't with me. A bit lesser in the actual danger department but a similar thing that happened around the same age. The playground in elementary school was at the bottom of a hill and in the winter sometimes it would be slick and icy. One time I was having trouble getting up the hill and crawling up with my crotch rubbing on the ground. The teachers were yelling and threatening and it caused the same orgasm sensation. The first time was incidental but I made it happen other times..the more they would yell the more the orgasm sensation. What do you think caused this behavior? It seems so strange now to think about.