coldmoon

Out of NC with ex, talked with him today and had a very nice chat with good communication. Gonna see what happens

Okay, after 4-5 months my ex just send me friendrequest and asked how i am, i'm shocked.

However, i don't know if i'm going to reply

Well, the guy i currently like has no feelings for me. So i told him i can't be friends with him.

I'm going NC now.

Haven't heard from my ex for 4-5 months either.

Day 1

I don't even know how long i've been in NC. 3, 4 months maybe. Well, my ex still didn't contacted me. I'm living my own life and i'm interested in someone else Everything gets better.

Day 3

Feeling terrible today, also my money got stolen when i was on a trip today

Day 2, it feels so unreal that he blocked me. I keep starring at my phone.

day 1

I texted ex and said hello, now i'm blocked everywhere. Back to square 1.

Somewhere in week 5

Gonna start my language course soon, excited. I also gonna eat healthier and start walking more.

Ex hasn't contact me, too bad...

29 days, 4 weeks

Oh well, i have lots of distraction.

Day 25

I need more things to do to fill my time beside work. I still think about my ex all the time and it's really tiring me.

Day 24

Finally working many hours again. Ex hasn't contact me and i still feel bleh.

day 21/ 3 weeks

I'm almost not crying anymore, but i still think of him nonstop

day 20,

:suspicion:

Day 9

 

Maybe I should stop writing here, and just do it when he tries to contact me again, if he ever do it.

 

I am feeling better, yesterday was a difficult day for me to handle, but I did not write to him again, what makes me feel more confident and more in control of the situation. Game is over for him.

I'm glad you feel better today, stay strong

Day 19,

Proud of myself that i haven't contact him so far.

Day 18

Atleast i had lots of distraction today.

Day 17, My world is fallen into darkness i keep wondering what the ex is up to.

Yes, that is for the best. It sucks when they won't acknowledge you, but that makes it easier to let go. You are forced to.

Yes, thinking about the fact that we are forced to and have no other choice kind of helps me going on. I wish it wasn't like this but it already happened and is in the past now.

Day 16, I also hope he will ever reach out too me

Day 15, feeling so depressed....

Day 14, 2 weeks

I hope that my hope fades away soon.

Ugh, waking up always give me this strange negative feeling, specially after dreaming about my ex

I'm sorry for pushing you, i thought i could handle being friends with you but i was so wrong. I still love you so much and hope you won't be angry anymore.

day 13, spended time with family today but still think about my ex constantly. I also spoke with a friend today online and her ex contacted her, they became friends again and will see if it becomes more. I hope my ex will contact me someday too. Meanwhile, i made a list of stuff to do for tomorrow to distract myself.

Day 12, this day took forever! I need more things to do to distract myself.