I understand your insecurity. My boyfriend and I have been together three and a half years now, and this is still something that bothers me. We are both bisexual, but I think misses guys more than I miss being with women. Maybe because I AM a woman...
Anyway, I was much more leniant about everything when our relationship was newer. I think it's because there was less time I'd invested in it, less of my life. There was even a point where I let him have a guy friend from the internet come to visit us and spend the night with him. I didn't care so much then because I knew he loved me... but somewhere along the line my jealousy has grown.
What gets me the worst for some reason is the cyber sex. I have nearly broken up with him over it, the pain has been so bad. I don't know how RIGHT is is of me, to have allowed physical sex at one point and now I am forbidding him to have cyber sex.. but it just makes me feel bad. I tried and tried to allow it, but it just makes me so insecure and crazy feeling like I'm not enough.
I don't know what to do about it... I don't know if he is still doing it inspite of our massive fights over it. The urge to search his computer is always strong, since he has made promises we've compromised and still he's broken his word repeatedly. We hardly ever fight, except for this issue! It's really ridiculous... otherwise I am so happy with him.
I know I'm not answering your questions, just validating your fears. For that I'm sorry, but I haven't found my own answers yet.
~ TH
