I know writing about it won't change anything, however I want to type this out just to vent a bit and figure out how Im feeling.
After our first "date" she texted me telling me how she had a great time and would be interested in doing it again. I thought I was doing everything right, I opened doors for her, paid for meals, didn't rush into anything.
Date two was at my apartment, I made dinner and had some sides prepared. She ate the whole plate and we played some corn hole in the courtyard. We then went to grab ice cream and just sat, talked, and ate for an hourish. I also thought this date went very well. after dropping her off, she said shed text me. That night, she texted thanking me for a great night and praised how good the dinner was.
I responded the same and started asking if she would be free to hang out again at some point this week. She never responded until last night Where she said that she's had a great time hanging out with me but just doesn't want to get into anything new because she's busy with school and work but that shed love to stay friends because she enjoys hanging out with me.
This is all completely valid, she has the right to her own opinions and to make her own decisions so I said that I totally get it and for her to text me if she ever wants to hangout.
There are a few things that just don't really add up that are making me hurt a little though.
First, she said she's busy with school and work, why would she agree to hangout in the first place?
Second, last night I decided to re download a dating app just to get my mind off of things, and one of the first people I see is her, so apparently she is looking for something?
Finally, I understand that there is the completely real option that she's just not interested in me and is just letting me down nicely. Im just confused on that as well. She always seemed very enthusiastic and flirty in her texts and when I picked her up for dinner, she was taking shots with her roommates and her roommate told me she was super nervous.
I doubt this is the case, but my roommate is convinced its because I didn't try to make any moves on her.
I understand that Its time for me to just let things go and move on, but having these unanswered questions is just leading me to be stuck in my thoughts when I need to focus on classes.