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I dont hate you now, but sometimes I still wanna say " you" in your face, especially when you left me all this guilt I am feeling right now even though it's been 4.5 months since you dump me.
I may have been overreacted at some situations, been a drama queen as you loved to call me. Now I look back I do realize I may have overreacted at the stuff that I bickered to you about. But I did it because you made me feel at that time, that I could be sure of. you never made me feel secured, about us and about myself. When I said how I feel about sth you did, I am the
I did love you very much, I cared about you deeply, maybe that is why I come off as needy or bickering or "controlling" because I was trying to improve how things work between us. Did I regret talking to you about phone problems? sometimes I did, because I found this is when things start to not work for us, and sometimes, I asked myself did you really play that often, but there are few occasions which I rmb hard that I was pissed that you are on your phone for so long when I could be spending my time doing sth else or be with my friends or family. But what if I never said anything about it, at a point, we would have to realize that we are so bad at communicating at each other we will eventually fall apart.
You are my first boyfriend, the first guy that I loved other than my dad. You sweep me off the feet that night when I first met you, and you got me fall for you. I never ran a relationship, so I dont know what to expect, except from my friends.
I dont love you anymore, I got a new life now, and you seemed to too. you probably will forget me, since we were only together for 8 months and in the end you probably just found me or rmb me as this crazy bickering dramatic .
There are up and downs in relationships, even though during the downs I decided to stay and put an effort in it to make it work because I loved you. You decided to get up and leave.
I know I prob see you more in the future, because yes I climb now but I didnt start it because of you. There's even a time I question whether I should start it because you have been doing it. In the end I did and I am glad, because it's becaus of climbing and the people I met there that helped me get back on with my life. I still cry sometimes but most of the time I am happy.
Last year when I met you, it felt like destiny because if I hadnt done this or been there beforehand, there's no way I would have met you that night. after you dumped me, I stop believing in destiny. But now if I hadnt met you, I wouldnt start climbing. life's funny.
thank you for the 8 months I spent with you. There are moments that you made me cry so hard and even depressed. There are moments that made me smile. there are embarassing things I did that I cringed whenever I look back. But thank you for making me realize my flaws and now that I know what they are, I've been working on them. and also thank you for making me stronger.
Post here instead of contacting your ex!
in Healing After Break Up or Divorce
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And one more thing: please learn to be more appreciative!!!!