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And one more thing: please learn to be more appreciative!!!!

I dont hate you now, but sometimes I still wanna say " you" in your face, especially when you left me all this guilt I am feeling right now even though it's been 4.5 months since you dump me. I may have been overreacted at some situations, been a drama queen as you loved to call me. Now I look back I do realize I may have overreacted at the stuff that I bickered to you about. But I did it because you made me feel at that time, that I could be sure of. you never made me feel secured, about us and about myself. When I said how I feel about sth you did, I am the I did love you very much, I cared about you deeply, maybe that is why I come off as needy or bickering or "controlling" because I was trying to improve how things work between us. Did I regret talking to you about phone problems? sometimes I did, because I found this is when things start to not work for us, and sometimes, I asked myself did you really play that often, but there are few occasions which I rmb hard that I was pissed that you are on your phone for so long when I could be spending my time doing sth else or be with my friends or family. But what if I never said anything about it, at a point, we would have to realize that we are so bad at communicating at each other we will eventually fall apart. You are my first boyfriend, the first guy that I loved other than my dad. You sweep me off the feet that night when I first met you, and you got me fall for you. I never ran a relationship, so I dont know what to expect, except from my friends. I dont love you anymore, I got a new life now, and you seemed to too. you probably will forget me, since we were only together for 8 months and in the end you probably just found me or rmb me as this crazy bickering dramatic . There are up and downs in relationships, even though during the downs I decided to stay and put an effort in it to make it work because I loved you. You decided to get up and leave. I know I prob see you more in the future, because yes I climb now but I didnt start it because of you. There's even a time I question whether I should start it because you have been doing it. In the end I did and I am glad, because it's becaus of climbing and the people I met there that helped me get back on with my life. I still cry sometimes but most of the time I am happy. Last year when I met you, it felt like destiny because if I hadnt done this or been there beforehand, there's no way I would have met you that night. after you dumped me, I stop believing in destiny. But now if I hadnt met you, I wouldnt start climbing. life's funny. thank you for the 8 months I spent with you. There are moments that you made me cry so hard and even depressed. There are moments that made me smile. there are embarassing things I did that I cringed whenever I look back. But thank you for making me realize my flaws and now that I know what they are, I've been working on them. and also thank you for making me stronger.