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I just remembered something he said to me last we spoke, two weeks ago.
When I told him I was having a hard time and that this is all so hard he said something along the lines of "its only hard so long as you let it be hard" or "it takes as long as you give yourself to get over someone". I asked how long he had given himself and he said "I havent"
Part of me is so mad at him... I feel cheated. I feel like he had months to prepare himself for this... Worse, he had me by his side to prepare him for this and here I am suffering this alone. I feel so up and down. Some moments I feel indifferent, other I feel anger and resentment and sometimes deep love and longing. I hate this.
Very insensitive of him!! You are doing so well! Keep it up!
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HA! I feel amazing today! I am happy and without you! I think you are loosing your hold over me! Your friend messaged me this morning and literally asked me zillions of questions.. It didn't have an effect on me like it would have a month ago... I would've been thinking about what to answer and what he meant by saying this and that and how i should come accross as happy! Now I just am!
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I miss you a lot right now. How we laughed and chatted every day all day long. Do you not miss me at all? Was I not important to you? We wanted to be with each other.. Was it all a lie?
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Day 4 NC i saw you online but you haven't replied to my Birthday Greeting yet.. Think I am slowly getting over you and just missing the closeness and companionship.. Sunny weather helps too
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I'm finding it hard today! Really missing you and laughing with you and all! You will get my Happy Birthday message on Skype tomorrow. I am unsure what I am feeling... Insecure ..
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I have made the same mistake in the past with birthday greetings and hoping for a responce that might never come. Just be prepared for that and hang on. You can manage through this!
Thank you hun! Just feeling sorry for myself and I can not wait to feel so exhausted to just fall asleep.. We all know the feeling .. Big hugs xx
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Getting drunk now cause i sent you a Happy Birthday.. Feeling lonely
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Back to Day 1
Just broke NC to message him a Happy Birthday.. Feelings are raw now..
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I just messaged him a Happy Birthday! That is all! Back to Day 1 NC
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Wonderfully written! I could've said this myself! We will be ok! We are strong and will be happy again with and find someone who loves us the way we deserve x
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Anytime! I hope you managed to slip through the night. I realize in this journey, each day only makes us more stronger and happier than the previous day. Have a great week end!
I managed not to text him Day 33 for me now! Every weekend I get sad there isn't a drunk text from him on my phone.. But really. What good would it do ! x
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Thank you so much for the kind words anotherlove! I needed to hear that! x
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I haven't text him Happy Bday .. It is 6pm now and I don't think I am ready to face more rejection and pain! He told me to move on and said those things about his ex, I told him not to contact me again! Right now I am sticking to no I won't text him after 32 Days NC! I made it so far i don't want to go back to the pain!
I might crack tonight and text him but I am trying to stay strong
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Day 32
I miss you and I don't think I will say happy Birthday to you but right now I am busy so who knows if i will crack tonight I keep asking myself is it worth the pain. I don't think I am ready ..
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Today is your birthday! I went to bed with the thought of you and woke up with it again! This is torture
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It's only two hours and 20minutes from your birthday right now! I wish I was there! You are probably getting ready to go out with friends, having a drink and having a laugh! I am sitting here feeling sorry for myself! I miss you right now! I've managed 31 Days of NC since you broke it off with me and you haven't talked to me once. Tomorrow will be the hardest day of it all. Wish I could hear your voice and hug you
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back to day1 again tomorrow grrrr..
i hate myself.. now, i blocked his number.
What happened?
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Day 31 thinking of you today and that your birthday is tomorrow! I am finding it hard to concentrate and have not been able to study for 3-4 days! Which is really annoying me! I wish i could just talk to you and we would laugh like in old time! I miss your smell and your voice and your hugs! You were my best friend, we understood each other without a word and I truly adored you! We had so many good times together and you are really funny haha! I will try and stick my head in the books now because it will make me feel better knowing I can move on and not let thoughts of you bring me down! I choose to stay strong for me! Me is my most important person!
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Aww thanks Amandacast57 I got a new Job and will be moving back home in just over a month! I am really excited! My Ex and I were LDR, he is from there also but I think once I am there I won't think about that anymore because starting a new Job will be so exciting!! Thats why his friend asked me today on Fb if we were back together when He saw the post
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Today is 30 Days NC and I am having a rough time because I got good news and it hurts not being able to share it with him ... I am happy and I still think of him, which is bringing me down.. I think it is because I was so used to telling him everything good and bad.
It doesn't help that one of his friends messaged me, when seeing my news on fb and thought we were back together..
Just another day to get through ...
THE NO CONTACT CHALLENGE, Part 2
in Getting Back Together
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Don't know why today is any different but I miss you and I want to message you right now..