Confused28645

Im still sitting here wishing you would get in touch. I won't, as much as I want to, I'm too scared of the rejection. I just want to know that you are feeling as crap as I do over everything. I wish I had never met you. I want to know you are feeling as miserable as I am, maybe then at least it would indicate you felt something for me. We had something so special to begin with that I am gonna find it impossible to find that with anyone again. Im always going to have to settle for second best now.

Oh the way mine handled the whole thing was disgusting. I wouldnt treat a dog the way he treated me. But I still only seem to be able to lament over the good times.

And yes I too feel utterly foolish. That I swallowed all his lies.

I have been so heartbroken

But I woke at 4am this morning

Thinking of You

And what I felt was

Disgust and Revulsion

I so need to feel that. I can when I really think about it. But I find myself dreaming of him in a nice way and I dont want to. God I wish it would stop.

How did it come to this? How could I have gone from being the love of your life to something you just discarded. You always said I am the only one for you and always will be. You said you still loved me, you missed me. So why the hell has this happened? Why didnt you fight to sort it out?