Thanks guys, I appreciate all your feedback
First of all, I want to get better... this is for sure.
Secondly, the army issue will be in my way for a long time and will ultimately haunt me if I don't serve it now. But I have the opportunity to adjourn it for now and concentrate on my current job.
However if I go to the army service now, I am so worried about what kind of opportunities I will have (or not) afterwards?
This is so freaky.
Please God, help.