loulou37

Omg brigadoon!! i remember you, i never thought i would see this day!!

Good Luck in your lives together and i mean that with all my heart

loulou x

I have been back with my exbf for a month. We'd been apart for over half a year, but now we are better than before. He dumped me and I initiated contacts. Finally he decided that he wants to spend his life with me.

I too have been talking to my ex, initiated by me but we have had some nice chats, i've mentioned nothing about the break up and i won't go there unless he decides it's something he wants to talk about, it's the past now, it's history...no point going there, i am partly to blame for the BU, although i didn't think so at first, time has made me realise my part but we're talking and that is a great start, i love him and i know he loves me so i just need to give him time and space to get things in order...we've agreed to meet once things are sorted on his end....

loulou x

I wish i'd known what a total * * * * * * * you was gonna be before i risked everything to be with you!!

hope you are happy

day 21 - slow realisation that he doesn't care anymore...

I'm there with ya hun.

{{{{{hugs}}}}}

loulou x

My god!! day 8!! never thought i'd do it...it's not got any easier, still the urge burns right through to my soul, but i've done it and i will continue, even if it kills me!...poor sod really lost out on something good ;-)

loulou x

This is actually a bit ridiculous, right?

I bet this thread is FULL of beautiful,intresting,intelligent, lovely people!

And yet here we are! Pining over our exes who.. instead of pining over us are just having a great time with their new loved ones or partying with their friends.

 

The heart knows no logic.

I'm with you there monchill, i was reading the posts on here and feeling so sad, my heart goes out to all of you...moonchill is so right, we're here pining for our ex's and they are getting on with their lives.

We need to find some strength within ourselves to move on, easier said than done, my god!! don't i just know it!!

this need to end, there is so much pain here 3 we are worth so much more..

BU beginning sept...LC, 3 times initiated by me, so we could meet to talk...we met Tuesday 18th but he didn't want to reconcile...so i guess this it for me

Day 4 no contact...it's been the easiest day this week!!

had to post here....i nearly e-mailed him...god!!! the urge was so strong, i was even looking on my old phone to see if i could find his number so i could text him!!...

the feeling has passed and i'm so glad i didn't, he was the one who didn't want me, why should i be chasing him!!

i saw your profile on badoo, god i can't believe your looking already, you make me feel sick....a guy of your age looking for a girl of 18!!! are you some kind of pervert! what the hell were you doing with me! you can go * * * * off, your a vile dog!

well back to day 1...broke NC yesterday to email my ex....it was necessary, i feel. i know today i done the right thing, being accused of cheating was eating me up inside and stopping me from moving forward, today i would if been flying out to see him...i did hope he's text to tell me to come, hahaha who am i fooling!

anyway feeling better after the email..now i don't have any urges to contact him.

day 7... what an awful day...id love to txt my ex but i wouldnt get anywhere, hes totally blocked me out,,,i hope this nitemare ends soon....cant wait to sleep properly again.

i never cheated on you, i had the plentyoffish acc way back when we split up, you said i joined it in dec 18, but that wasnt true, it was in october when you dumped me and i returned home....you read it all soo you must know, there was nothing in there!! i told everyone that contacted me that i wasnt looking for anything, id just split with my boyf.. also the facebook, nearly all the guys that were added on there were from when i joined back in june last year, yea i added a few more as i went along, but i was never cheating, i tell you that i never ever even spoke to them on fb, i only wnet on to talk to my friends....you had tagged the whole first year of our relationship, and i told you all the time it made me feel insecure, but basically you told me to deal with it. it hurt me. well you got what you wanted, i hope your happy....i loved you truly, madly, deeply, youve destoyed me n ill never be the same again...you were my world....goodbye M.x.

puff just 5 days NC for me...i was doing well till last week then called...thn after text right up till saturday!!

what is wrong with us...where is our self control....ive never in my life been through such an awful experience.... i swear to god that never will i go through this again!!! i could never put my body and mind into this situation....