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Time to start all over again I think...Day 2

23rd Dec - He comes round my house unannounced with a few gifts for me. All goes well, we chat nicely and have a few laughs, then he texts me later that evening and we continue to chat via text.

25th Dec - He texts me saying "Merry Christmas x" I reply "To you too x"

27th Dec - Today is my birthday - and nothing.

Day 13

And I'm getting ready to go out with a (male) friend later tonight.

This will be the first time I've gone out since he left me, and I'm quite looking forward to it.

Day 10 - just as hard as ever not to call him, but its for the best that I don't

Oops, duplicate post

Day 8 NC, my personal best, haha.

Struggling with it still, but I know its for the best

Day 6 of NC

It doesn't get any easier....as time goes on I keep thinking

a) He's wondering what I'm up to and could possibly call anytime now - fat chance!!

or

b) He's so busy with his 'new life' that he's not given me a second thought

Hmmm...

Day 4 NC

Only 4 days but it feels more like 4 months.

Day 9

 

I have been thinking of contacting her until I read a post that made sense and brought me back to reality. I'm still missing her and I know I shouldn't even be feeling about her this way since she's not worth it. I have finals the next two weeks, I just hope im strong enough to make it. Wait, no... I know! I am strong enough to make it.

 

Stick to it at all costs!

 

This weekend I have made every error possible. I've texted like a million times, and to start off with it was okay, but then I got angry and have just spouted about how much of a nasty piece of work he turned out to be, and that he has totally wasted 3 years of my life - and I can tell you - It feels pretty cr*p now.

 

Stick to NC - that way you can't say the wrong thing.

You have to be strong to do NC. I'm weak

I'm cr*p at this. I give up. I'm a loser who can't accept the truth.

End of day 3

I don't think he even remembers that I exist

End of day 2

NC is almost killing me - but he obviously has nothing to say that I want to hear so I shall leave it as it is for now

End of day 1 (again)

Had an email from him first thing this morning, and am resisting the urge to contact him. I WILL NOT CONTACT HIM

Well, its the end of day 4

And I'm glad it's about over to be honest. Its been just over 2 weeks since he left me and today has been just horrible.

All of a sudden at work this afternoon and I was in floods of tears. Its been 4 days of NC and I really, truly thought he'd have called me by now but he hasn't. I feel like I've been dumped again - I guess I got him totally wrong - he must be getting on with his life while I'm sitting at home pining for him. Desperate for him to miss me. I wish I could hate him for what he's putting me through, but I can't

I'm still in the phase of checking out his myspace page (god, I hate that site) and I know he's been with his mates every night this week so I doubt he's even realised I've not called or texted him.

This NC is hard