unstuck

Yeah, I truly believed someone better would come along and she did! I'm geeked! Now I see my ex and think "what was I thinking???" She broke NC but by then I was already interested in someone else.

I feel ok Dave, thanks. It was a short term thing, under six months, not all that serious. But she got under my skin real deep. When I decided I didnt need to put up with her ambiguity any longer I implemented NC after an argument almost 1 1/2 months ago. I needed to let go. Of course I hoped she would see the err of her ways (lol) and call but...nope. When we did talk almost a month after she seemed VERY anxious at first but after she chilled she was her old self, complained about being so busy and tired, life sucks yadda yadda. Then threw in something about being interested in someone but no time to date. I was cool, no bad reaction (I kinda expected her to say something like that, to try to hurt me of course)

I kept it short and said I had to go, see you around. Then the next week she approached me and reminded me of some money she owed and paid me, also bout a shirt of mine she had, how am I doing blah blah blah. At first I thought it was her trying to regain contact and whos knows what else and felt good about it like I said. I aint biting, I'm letting go, shes a game player, and I aint the toy in the toybox! I DID grow during NC! I deserve better! It was VERY hard for the first couple weeks but I held fast, and I grew.

She on the other hand was exactly the same. Like I said, I could have seen her the other night, acted cool, aloof, kept her interested, maybe more contact.....screw it! I'm done.

BTW I'm seeing someone else now, shes nice. I'm moving on ( I'd say "moved on" but if I had I wouldnt be here right? lol). NC is the way to go, I HAD to let go no matter how I felt about her, VERY hard, but I'm doing it. I dont know what the future holds, but it will NOT be up to her with me waiting like some shmuck! My life is up TO ME!

Thanks Dave, lurking got me through this, posting might help someone else.

I had a chance to see her yesterday, somewhere all my friends meet, I decided not to go. Last time she was there we talked for a minute, I actually felt good about it, but not for the right reasons. I have to let it go.

Yeah, getting to the point of looking at things the way THEY ARE is key. Hope creates denial, and visa-versa. I've known all along I'll be better off and find someone better, it just took time to let my heart catch up and shake all the "woulda, coulda, shoulda's".