hi thanks to all who replied. I was talking to my partner last night, he has been with me all through this, he knows about my past.
in all my sons life i have never had the oppertunity to raise him how i wanted to.
when he was 2 he fell down the stairs,top to bottom and my mum blamed me for that, i went into shock for two weeks,but was told i was putting it on.
i was never allowed to have friends, she told me she is the only friend i need in life. i have seen my dad 5 times in my life, and when i was 7 years old, he came into the house and tried to kill my mum, he left her for dead, bleeding,and i was the only one in the house.
i suffered mental abuse from mum all through my life and now have this deep, i dont know hard to explain, she has always had a hold on me.
I stood up to her once and things got worse.
everything i ever said or did was wrong, i lived with my grandparents mostly as she couldnt be bothered to take me to school as she was taking drugs instead.
she made me do things as a child, now i look back and realise these things were illegal.i was sexually abused at 6, and nothing was ever done, i was blamed for messing his life up.
I always knew i wanted to go and find a better life, and when i had my son i vowed not to raise him the same way as i was raised.
i had a chance to have a better life in the form of my partner, been with him for four years, he offered to let me and my son come stay with him til i got on my feet. my son had known him for 2 years, and they got on together. it all started when i told my mum a holdiday had been booked, my partner had booked a weekend away for my son, me and him. a week before i told mum that we were going, she told me im not thinking of my sons happiness and that if i took him for the weekend she would make my life a living hell.
its been said that my life sounds like a movie, so hard to believe.
the night before the holiday mum got on the phone to me, her voice sounded weird, she said if i took my son away for the weekend she would run me down in the street.
i couldnt take things anymore, the threats,the mental abuse, and i made a desision to move away, but still i didnt want to stop my son from seeing his family. the first time he goes to stay with her he never came back. im 25 years old.
