sandyv

MusicGuy, this is very nice, but brought tears to my eyes, guess maybe I can relate eh? But very good stuff!

Sandy

Thats very good Lily!

C J... Very nice, you seem quite talented!

Sandy

Musicguy... This is just beautiful... thank you...

Sandy

No it isn't, and I didn't write it either, just really like the words, describes my horrible situation totally is all....

I can almost hear you sigh

I can almost hear you cry

On every crowded street

All the places we would meet

Acted much too calm

You had a cold look in your eyes

Did it mean nothing

Was it all in vain

Was I just your fool

Or was the pleasure pain

Have you set me free

Or will I wake up

In the morning

And find out it's been a bad dream

Come on, I beg you

I want to be your girl

I can almost hear you sigh

Almost hear you cry

When you made sweet love to me

Almost see your smile

It stretched half a mile

You had a stone cold look in your eyes

What will I do without you ?

They say that life goes on

I'm feeling sorry for myself

I can't believe you're gone

You acted much too calm

You turned on all the charm

You had a cold look in your eyes

I can feel your tongue on mine

Silky smooth like wine

I'm living with those memories

That's all that's left of you and me

Yes its a compliment, just saying I feel what you've written in your poem.... very much....

Afro.... very beautiful, and sad.... and I could have written it by the words I see there....

Those are just beautiful Niceguy!....

You seem to be very talented... !

Hey Niceguy! Its really good!

Sandy

Sarah, thats really nice, I really enjoyed it... keep up the good work!

Hey Brando... its very good! ^

I see you have a thing for trees ... looking at your sig... and its true, trees are much like people and their emotions.

I buy more books then

I can read, my collection

Dusty, awaiting.

Excellent Brando!

Sandy

Oh you are sooo welcome Brando.... keep em coming eh?

Sandy

Very nice Brando!

Thats beautiful KG!

I sat and thought about this poem SB, runs deep, I like it...

Coyote, that was very beautifully written, and I feel your pain, believe me I do....

Last breakup with me and my ex guy is totally the way it is this time, and its as painful as hell, I feel like I'll die of loneliness without him.... but there is nothing I can do to change the way he is, the way I am..... I can't stop loving him, that just isn't a choice at all.... So I will go on... and let him go forever, because thats the way that its gotta be, yeah it sucks but there nothing else to do about it....

Yep In love with a ghost myself...... and I still dream of that ghost...

Oh Coyote, I so hear you, I'm feeling those same kind of emotions, they totally suck... but I'm sorta getting immune to the pain somewhat myself... but just a little at a time...

After awhile things can only hurt you so much I guess, I really don't understand this process at all... all I know is it sucks... big time.....

My hearts not into seeing anyone else, love takes hostages you know?, and its hard to get free? I can't get free at this point... when will I be able to do that? I don't know... but I'm waiting patiently for that to happen.

Just know that you aren't alone, I feel what your feeling too.... we will pull through all this.... eventually I hope.....

Its so true 1guygirl, routine really helps me feel like my life is in order as well. I have let things go myself, so I have to start organizing everything as far as the household goes to feel more in control of a previously bad situation.

Yep the ex @ssholes always seem to manage to hold onto our hearts even though we know exactly what they are and that they are definitely no good for us, its true.... but this too shall pass.... I hope!

I have to force myself outta bed in the morning, crank on the radio, make a tea and face yet another day at work, which actually helps.. its a diversion.

Its really good to have your's and everyone elses inspiration, makes things a whole lot easier...

Hey and Congrats on those sexy maternity jeans, thats great!!!!

(((HUGZ)))

Sandy

Brokenbear, I understand that totally, my ex was a total jerk to me, and I can clearly see that after the past couple of weeks, doesn't stop me from the feelings I still have for him. Just like me, you don't have an on/off switch, we can't change how we feel. Its ok to love her still, I still love him too, but that is part of the acceptance of the breakup also.

Day 16 approximately here...

I hear you BrokenBear, its tough I know, but every day I, and we all make it through is another victory. Onwards, upwards is the only way to go. Keep going everyone, there is light at the end of the tunnel!

Morning 1guygirl!

Hope you are well, you certainley sound cheerful!

Just want to tell you how inspiring you are, what would we would without you? Your the best... I just feel better every time I read one of your posts, thanks so much...!

Mikey, hope as days pass you will feel a little better, I do somewhat. The ex sounds mean and you do deserve better. Yep NC all the way!

Sandy

Hi Dunzo, Waterbaby, Brownsline Girl Bear Mikey and everyone else not mentioned. Hi I had a sad weekend. It just felt way to long with too much time to think. I never went anywhere other than the grocery store.

Dunzo you mentioned our ex's thinking we are a mess if they hear we are drinking. Who cares what they think. I guess I'm at the angry stage, cause I don't give a damn what he thinks anymore. He also drinks too much, plus smokes too much green, and I've heard through my guy friend who was over HE'S is a mess..... looks good on him actually.

The guy friend was over a couple of nights and I was glad he was, although I had to ask him to not mention my ex, (they've ran into each other at the local bar a few times lately). We had some laughs, cooked together and that kinda thing. Was at least a distraction. And it always used to bugged the ex that I hung around with this guy so I felt good about it! (We are friends, although at one time dated a little, but I'm not into him that way) Must be the rebel in me...?

I'm getting ready for work and glad to be going just to get my mind off things. I always feel a little better being there rather than at home too much.

Keep strong everyone, I'll be around to rant later I'm sure.....

Sandy

^^^

I hear you Mikey8888, I understand how you feel, how can someone say they love you and then totally abandon you 2 weeks later?, I just don't understand how that could be? I'll also be glad for the weekend to end, I'm lost here and destroyed, just wondering these stupid thoughts that never seem to end.......