okay this is stupid. Im 18, male and i have a girlfriend for a couple of months now. It's great. Its really healthy in both directions. She makes me happy everyday. But there's one thing, and its my brain. I have specific impulses that make me sad, but they almost always make no sense. Its like little insecurities in random moments, which I do not agree with but they affect my body.
Example:
She gets along well with my friend. They are texting a lot, but i know why and its perfectly fine for me. Im even happy about it. Its 100 percent platonic and i really dont mind it. The problem is that my mind doesn't like it. It drove me crazy when she told me she was talking to him in that moment, and I really didn't know why. We talked about it, I wanted her to stop talking to me about him. I mean I wanted her to stop telling me when she was texting with him, I didn't want them to stop talking. Only now it's even worse, I check their activity, or I immediately notice when she replies too quickly. I would understand it if it bothered me and I was afraid, but that's not the case at all, I enjoy it but at the same time I get a slight panic attack every time. Its really stupid I know. But its something inside me and I don't know how to deal with it.
