anotherday29

I'm back at work tomorrow, so a fresh start

What gets me down so much, is when she asked me how I feel about her, because I apparently seemed a bit distanced the one day, and she was telling me she wants to give her time an love for me, but she's scared I'll hurt her, so I reassured her I won't, then she breaks it off with me in seconds, wouldn't even give me the time to see her, just blocked an spoken to like crap

I did 🙃 I bought loads of thick jumpers and gave them out in the city centre for the homeless..

Because I have a big heart, I'm doing well in terms of money, and I wanted too feel the joy of Christmas together

Thank you for your message. I honestly just felt like she wanted it the way things was going, like she asked me if we could get a Christmas tree together an decorate it, so I assumed she was enjoying herself like I was. I wouldn't of acted so forward if I knew she wasn't feeling it the same, but now I know.

We actually did talk about stuff like this, She asked me would I want a family one day and my response was yes. I'd love to have children a wife one day, an she also agreed, but tbh after some reflection I believe it was a bit to fast too soon, she was only recently single, she said she was 2/3 months out of a years relationship.. I think the buzz of Christmas and me an her spending time together so frequently, made me want to spoil her an feel like a relationship

And Instagram relationship????? Nooo far from it, I don't really use social media as I find it creates problems in relationships.

I just thought we was good that's all, I really liked her, we live so close to each other, she would pick me up from work on her days off, we would cuddle an watch tv together... if I knew it was to much I'd of backed off a bit, if someone tells you good morning, an asks how your day is going an they miss you, it easy to get caught up in love bombing or being too available. I'm quite guarded when it comes to relationships, I told her this, an she actually said "don't worry, I won't hurt you" I really like you an I wanna be with you. Because in the first couple of weeks I wasn't to emotionally available, I was actually going the gym, an saying not tonight darling, tomorrow.. but its just strange you give people what they want, then they change.... Her final txt yesterday was pretty cruel, I asked if we could talk or just meet up, And I asked why she hadn't blocked me on whats app, an her response was "out of respect for you" It left me more confused why leave X amount of communication blocked an some communication available. And she responded I'll block you if you want me too.. My response was noo, I wanna see you but if you wanna block me it's up too you.. then boom, blocked !!!... such a gut wrenching feeling when you've been apart of someone's life the last how many weeks

I know it was only 7 weeks, but it felt special, I know there's plenty of woman out there in this world, and i dont struggle to gain female attention all honestly, I've got a sports back ground, im quite successful at work, I've contacts in other countries so i can travel with ease so i know i can bring a lot to a relationship i just like the way we met, it wasn't on a dating app or a night club, we was both just innocently getting food and we couldn't stop looking at each other, a smile came so I approached her... Speaking of exs, she did says only 3 months single from a years relationship so quite possible there was an ex in her ear, or vise versa

Do you think its worth reaching out maybe in a few days, I do have a work phone, maybe drop her an apology, or ask for just a chat, or send her a card? She would text me Good morning and goodnight, and i miss you daily, so I hope we can sort things out

I only bought her Christmas gifts, I asked what she liked an what she would want, My ex just crapped on all my efforts, we was together 4 years, I took her on holidays, restaurants, treated her for birthdays Xmas, and I was there for emotionally and physically but it didn't work

We sat on the sofa the one night an I was asking her what would she like for Christmas, as it was supposed to be our first, I was trying to be romantic an loving, So she told me what brands an stuff she likes so I surprised her with it all, she loved it tbh, she was super happy, giving me kisses an affection. She even phoned her mom when I gave her presents to her to show them off

If it wasn't Christmas, I'd of acted differently, yeah I'd help with basics if we're sharing, but the gifts was more excitement, my last relationship was very abusive, my ex would make me walk on egg shells an demand everything, I really liked this new girl I was really trying to be a gentleman

Yeah could be. But a small bit of communication could of slowed it down a bit, I work 84 hours a week day to day, I work 7 x 12 hours a week, then 4 days off

I work in construction, an I hurt my shoulder quite bad the one week an I couldn't drive so she would pick me after work an we would go back to hers, cuddle up, kiss, if she helped me I'd help her, I'd say babe let me top your fuel up, I acted like a gentleman to her, so like I say I'm speechless Her excuses was, she's too tired for a relationship an her heads not right.