let me give a few details, i'm 20 y,o and so she is...
so i've known this girl for 3 years, and i've been with her in relationship since june 2022, i loved her since we knew each other, but at that time she had a bf that she broke up with for being very toxic with her, after some time, she knew that i was in love with her and asked "can i be your gf?" and ofc i accepted
we've been together since then, even though she was really nice girl that shares so many interests like me, but she was always insecure about herself and constantly telling me she doesn't deserve such a loyal and nice guy like me, but all i did is that i tried to comfort her all time and try to make her realize she had wrong thoughts about herself, i supported her every day and night, i was ready to stay awake all night texting her if i notice she needs someone to listen or stay with...
i give all, and i thought yes this is the one, considering i never had a gf before and this is my first experience.
Now, her BIRTHDAY was last month, she always knew how i was so excited about her bd coming, but that bd night, she tells me she has lost feelings to me and can't stay with me anymore, I LITERALLY DIDN'T KNOW WHERE THAT CAME FROM, since that day i've been trying my best to fix things but all she says is that she doesn't love me anymore AND she doesn't even deserve to be loved and doesn't deserve to have a "perfect guy like me" as she says...
3 days ago, i recieved screenshots showing her sexting someone that she knew for 3 days, (this happened in january), I was shocked, i didn't expect her to do such thing ever, she told me about this guy but all she said is that someone tried to sext her but she stopped him and blocked him, she did actually block him but that was after she had a hot sex chat with him...
I told her about it and she said "see? told you i dont deserve you... what do you think about me now?"
She cheated, lied, and then left me alone not knowing whats happening at all, but i really still have very strong feelings for her that are not letting me focus on anything in life, i keep thinking about her, her situation is hard and her life is very rough, her family is toxic and i STILL THINK I CANT LEAVE HER ALONE EVEN AFTER ALL SHE DID, i know i'm wrong, i should leave her, but her life is hard and i cant let it go just like this...
she just doesn't want me to exist in her life at this point, all she says is "i don't deserve anyone to love me, i need to be alone always... this is who i am, just a liar and a cheater(sometimes calling herself a B****)
help me, what should i do im very very lost i still love her when i shouldn't...
