Whyithappenedwithme

1 minute ago, Wiseman2 said:

How long have you been dating?  Why did she tell you about her past? Are you from a culture/religion where intercourse or any sexual activity before marriage is not acceptable? Are you going to break up with her?

If you can not deal with her past, you need to set both of yourselves free and find appropriate acceptable and accepting partners. 

It's around 2 months. We  met online 4 months ago and we helped each other in our learning later we loved each other very deeply. She told in general discussion, earlier she pretended to be modest and shy. I am not going to breakup with her, l don't want to change my love like cloths and she is my first and last. If not her then l prefer celibate unmarried life long. Yes, l belongs to that that culture where sexual activities before marriage is not acceptable 

I am college final student, l practiced complete sense restraint and monkhood from last 7 years and never even spilled my seed. I only respected women, treated them as sister or mother. Later, l found someone with whom l became deeply connected spritually connected, l started to love her immensely. I unable to identify her extravagant bold behaviour which was uncomfortable for person like me. l thought this girl is exactly like me but after around 2 months of relationship she told me about his past sexual relationships. My face became as if thousands of ants scorching on me. I wish to end my life. I started to visualise her with her ex. I feel why this happened to me. Help me someone help me. I can't even want to leave her alone since l am committed to one, l can't replace my heart with someone. My feelings are so deep that crosses mundane expression of love. And even l don't have any issues with her past rather l became expired, seems everything ended for me.