SuperPeachh

Thank you all for the advice ♥️

*I also know that me and my friends now will NOT continue being close after graduation. I don’t feel connected to them/see our friendships being long term*

I wasn’t even sure on attending prom and our homecoming was canceled due to the threats . I guess I’m just scared of missing out on “normal teenage things” and social interaction. I of course would still hang out with my friends and be at dance with girls my age but it’s only so much talking you can due while learning lol. I went through a stage in middle school of having social anxiety and struggling to make friends and when I started high school, I got out of that and became more social. My social anxiety went away completely and I was comfortable being alone as well as being with friends. I guess I’m just scared of going back to the part of my life. I fear that I will loose my social skills and that I’ll become the old me. I know I need to let go of the past but it’s hard. I went to school in person today and while I love my friends, I realize that If I leave I won’t be missing much. I also me and any of my friends now will continue being close after graduation (if I choose to stay or go online). I just don’t feel that connected to them or see us being lifelong friends. I’ve never really been involved in school activities and didn’t plan on being this year, I guess I’m just scared of going back to my old self and having regrets. Dance is where I really feel I belong and I know I should choose it but it’s just that feeling holding me back. I’m expected to make a decision before next Tuesday so I will definitely try your suggestions.💜

Thank you guys for the replies. I’m 90% sure that’s the route I will take, just trying to get over the fear of possible failure I guess lol but thanks for the words of encouragement ❤️

Thank you for the advice. The whole situation is very stressful for me so I really appreciate the guidance 💜

For background information I'm currently a high school senior as well as a dancer and after high school I plan of going to college part time as well as pursuing a career in dance, choreography etc. This school year has been horrible for me, the year started off with my school extending the hours (we start an hour earlier and we used to dismiss at 3:00 now we dismiss at 4:45), they ended half days for Senior who had most of their credits, school was cancelled a few times because of threats and because of that football game, pep rallies, dances were all cancelled, then I got extremely sick and was out for 3 weeks which caused me to be sent truancy letters. I have doctors excuses for my absences and have spoke with my teachers but the whole situation has been extremely overwhelming from the beginning. My grades are suffering because of it too which bothers me because l've always done good in school. Aside from that, with the new school hours I miss a lot of opportunities and training in dance. I expressed how overwhelmed I was to my parents and they suggested I complete my Senior year online in order to focus on myself more and it would give me more time to dance. During the summer I also auditioned for a dance intensive program that prepares you for auditions and gives you exposure but it occurs during school hours (I auditioned before the school announced senior half days wouldn't happen). It's very hard to get into and even getting the audition was difficult, so to be accepted was a dream come true. One part of me feels like I've been waiting on this opportunity forever but another doesn't want to miss out on my Senior stuff. I would still see my friends but I just don't want to regret not experiencing it in person with everyone else. Any Advice?