Almalexia

Hahaha. Well, we talk mostly about my days, my experiences every day, so yeah, conversations are mostly from my part. At this point, if I broke up, I wouldn't date immediately. I have plenty of stuff to do for myself and being in a relationship for 4 years, might need a break. But I am really proud of that relationship, from the emotional and communicational point. I don't know if I every achieve that again. But I may talk bull***, I don't know. Physically for sure. She is beautiful. My type. But yeah, that's it at this point.

To be honest, yes, at this point, sex is something that is keeping me with her. She is also my type of girl, the one I really like, which makes it harder. She knows that. I do love her, that's why I try every time, however I can, to help her and make some progress in her problems. I like that we are in an emotional relationship which we built very nicely. Dating again, trying to find that again, especially in my small town, that's rough. But sex is not enough, that's true. She can keep a house, walk a dog. Those stuff are easy and she even does them at her home. Generally, she plays video games all day, and that's it. But she can keep a home, that's not an issue.

I met her online. We are now 4 years together, in a long distance relationship and I see no future. I met her when i was in the university. My city is 1,5 hours away by car, not a big deal, of course, but still it is an issue. The more time passes, the more clingy, needy and dreamy of living together, marriage and kids she becomes. Nothing bothers me from all that. This relationship is built very well. I never pressure her, get jealous, restrict her or anything. I trust her and she trust me. Sex is awesome too. You see. This long distance thing is an issue. I never done it before and I really wished I never did. Long distance relationships sucks and my advice is to never do it. You keep distance for a reason and for a specific time, not like this. In every payment I keep money for diesel, for the trip, and every time I rent airbnbs so we could be alone. Plus, I pay for everything we get, food, coffee, entertainment as she is unemployed. Beyond that, as I said, there are some other issues too. She is 31 and she has never worked in her life. Her parents are divorced, her father is a loser and her mother, 60yo, works to feed her unemployed daughter and brother. She didnt finish high school either. It was just the last year when I really talk to her into getting back and finishing school. I even tried to find with her what she would like to learn and work on. She decided she wanted to become a nail technician, which I fully supported. I even found some free schools in her city where she can go and study it. Those ask for a high school degree, ofcourse. She now needs two years to finish the high school. I created her a CV, put some silly lies in it, some fake work experience in some easy jobs so she can start looking. She never get calls though. She doesnt have any skills. So, no luck there too. Its just 1,5 years since I finally "woke up". I felt really bad with my self, so I started working on myself. Since I graduated uni, finished my military service, started hitting the gym, learning a second foreign language, took a IT certificate, working in a factory, reading for bus and truck license, started reading lots of books, generally doing stuff to become better. Not gonna lie, I wished I had a girl from hometown so I could grab her and take her for a walk, or chill together whenever we have time, everyday. Not waiting for the weekends or any other weekends and spend money which I wont really enjoy, you know Under those conditions, she cant move to my city or me move to hers. The expenses will be huge. And to be honest, its not worth it. The relationship is great. But practically I dont see it working and I dont know what to do...